is there any more support out there????

[newlifeahead]

Well here is day 9 and really it is day 15 without narcotics but i took 10 tramadol over the coarse of last weekend so i think it messed w me a little not sure how many days to count here. anyway i have been posting the whole time and got really only a couple responses for support here they posted 1 time and dont come back i have been working through w a friend desperate which i am thankful for we have been sticking it out together but could use some more people here. I see all these other ones that have TONS of support and others not so much. I feel like its me psoting to myself aside from desterate posting too. i have been having a terribale time w restless legs wondering how long this lasted for others it seems to let up a bit but i have been really forcing myself to stay really busy even tho sometimes i feel like i cant even pick my feet up. I start the morning feeling pretty good then feel drained after a couple hrs. Not gonna psot everythign from my bcakround u can go read my other post but i will ad that i was clean for over 2 years so i have done this before and it was the best years of my life once clean i keep looking forward to the holdiays of being clean and feeling good and taking my 10 month old trick or treating for his fisrst halloween i LOVE the fall so i am hoping that helps and i start to feel better soon. Any thoughts, comments, or jsut support will help i like to here about others journies through this too. Cnat wait to regain my life and live a abundant life that Jesus died to give us i used to be really active in the church but the past year on htese pills have robbed me of so much congrats to all that r doing this i get so happy when i see another one taking their life back from these evil pills blessings

[newlifeahead]

ann no not really better w the RLS it really hits me at night last night it didnt start till almost 8 but kept me up ALL night i actually laid in bed and cried to the point where it woke my husband up:( he talked to me and was really a big help but was still up the rest of the night i dont know what i will do if i dont get some sleep soon i sure hope it stops. I am in between family dt's now it is a long story but due to some past bills from a LONG time ago they wont see me even tho i have ins all the dr's under this "same group" which is amost ALL our dr's have a note in the puter not to schedule me i do have requip left and that isnt even helpind getting really frusterted no i didnt have it while using i slept like a baby in fact a lot of dr's prescribe narcotics for RLS so i am pretty much screwed there. So sorry u r feeling so depressed. I lost over 60 lbs a few years ago and slowely gained it back due to pregnancies then my use of pills. It is a hard thing. I cut out POP do NOT drink ANY sugary drinks u will lose a BUNCH just by doing that. Watch ur carbs bread, potatoes, candy, ships etc that is another biggy... and do some excercising i am forcing myself to excersice even tho i dont feel like it and look in the mirror EVERYDAY and tell urself u r beautfiul even if u dont feel it. the devil will allow u to snuggle in the position about feeling HORRIABLE about urself and then keep u down dont let it happen jsut get up and say ur not doing that and then start doign things. I forget how many days u have clean??? i dont remember everyones days since there r so many how r u feeling for energy wise??hey wishful great job on day 3 it seems impossiable i know i actually quit counting my days and had to look at a claendar today lol it is 19 days for me YAY in 2 days it will be 3 weeks gone already the days start to go by faster so def keep ur head up:) i still dont feel the best so dont expect only a few days and u willl be better i did that and i think it has messed me up because i just kept htinking i only have to get through 1 week. jsut telling u so u dont get let down coarse it may be quicker for u.. YES my son is a HUGE motivator we tried for a LONG time for a baby and lost 2 in early 2nd trimester so he was BIG TIME wanted. He is SOOOO precious i feel horriable he is almost 1 and i have been using his whole life NOT COOL... I too want that life of normal i had it before and LOVED the clean life. U have enough motivation w urself that u can keep going i am praying for u along w every other person on here. keep it going doing great... blessings to u all.... desperate where r u i hope things r ok been thinkgin of u

[wishfulthinking57]

Hey newlife, keep your head up and just remember, it will only get better.  You seem to have your motivation being given to you from your child, just hold on to that and whenever the going gets tough, just remember that motivation.  I personally do not have children, my motivation simply comes from wanting to lead a 'normal' life again, not having to rely on a pill to make my day better.  

@Ann, I too am in the same boat with the depression.  I'm only on day 3 of a hydrodocone detox after using for over a year, and let me tell you it is NO fun.  The best thing I can say for the depression, is pick up some L-Tyrosine.  I did this and it really does help.  That, mixed with a little bit of faith and courage, and you will be able to get through this, just like I will.  If at any point you would like pointers with how to get back into shape, I am a certified personal trainer and would be more then happy to give you a few work out ideas that will get you feeling better.

Wishing everyone all the best and will continue to check in on here, it's the support I'm receiving from here that's really helping push me forward, so thank you all and keep pushing, it will only get better.

[Ann2497]

RLS any better today?  I sure wish that would go away for you.  Did you have that at all when you were using?  Can you check with your doctor about taking some Clonidine and see if that takes away the symptoms?  That would be so good if it did.

What was for dinner tonight?  I just had a strawberry and banana smoothie.  I am trying so hard to lose weight.  I am actually very depressed about my weight and don't know what to do about it.  Rarely do you see a smile on my face.  I just don't know what to do.  Besides praying, any suggestions?   I hate myself right now.  The depression is hard to overcome.  I am so, so, so sad.  Never have I weighed this much.  :(   Thanks for listening.

[newlifeahead]

well i seem to be sleeping abit at night getting up lots to go potty the RLS seems to calm down so i can fall asleeep but comes back at 4 in the morn so bad i have to get up UGH that makes for a LONG day no wonder i cant lay down past 8 pm my eyes start burning at 6 i hope tis ends soon and i hope i have a good day today blessings to all hope everyone is doing well

[newlifeahead]

Yes his name is from the Bible we love it my husband is really into the old testimant so he knows all the stories i saw josiah online actually and asked him he fell in love w it and told me all about josiah from the bible!!!

Ok so it is 7 pm and the restless legs has started oh ever so faithful restless legs how i want to scream UGH it seems not near as bad and i only get it in one leg but wondering why in the heck wont it go away it has been over 2 weeks since my last vic/perc it is driving me crazy and i am startign to fear it will not go away. I know this is a real thing u can have it without detoxing oh my if i have it forever i will DIE... i am soooo fearful of this i wait for it to come that is prob why it keeps comign i wont allow my mind to jsut forget about it idk what to do but i am gonna stay clean.... i wish it would jsut stop

[Ann2497]

Is the name Josiah from the bible?  That is a really original name.

You need to treat yourself for making it this far and go out to dinner or order dinner in.  God bless.  Ann