Taper or cold turkey

[Nursey7]

I have been taking hydrocodone 7.5/500 for about 7 years after a major surgery and fibromyalgia. I want off this crap. I have to take way too many to feel good; it's miserable!!  1 have 15 pills left and am going on vacation in 2 weeks. I want to be off these and feeling better by then. I am on second day cold turkey and I have not slept, constant headache, severe muscle pain, resless legs, irritable, gi symptoms, crying constantly. I don't know if I should use these last 15 or continue cold turkey. Unless I take all of them at once they won't get me high. I have such a tolerance now it's terrible. I don't feel life is worth living right now and I hate that feeling. I am not one that would ever harm myself just feel awful. Help please!!!

[dee480]

after reading what everyone else posted, I would like to take back my last comment!  you guys are good!  can tell I'm new here, and trying to wean myself after not being able to make-it and fake-it going CT...good advise everyone, and good luck to all you strong people!  I'm a newbie here, but I have a feeling you'll all be seeing a bit more of me...good advice and support...good luck to all...

[kyle505]

Yep - I'm familiar with House.  Liked the show, but liked watching him take the vics the best.  And I know exactly how you feel/felt about the full bottle - it was Christmas. No matter what was going on, I was whole again; nothing could get in my way. But that all faded as the number of pills started to shrink and the panic started setting in about getting more. Tomorrow is the big 7. See you there.

[Lovemomof2]

I just read this entire thread and you are very inspiring! I have a few left and am deciding wheathet or not to just take them or get this over with. I think I am/ was taking a much higher dose than you, but am inspired by you flushing them! I hope to be where you are soon....nice work!

[Nursey7]

Sorry for the wah wah feeling sorry for myself!! I guess I can see how easy it to just turn back and it scares the hell out of me!! I felt so good yesterday and then I screwed up an on-line test for a job and all I thought about was those damn pills. I was already anxious, probably wasn't the best time to take the test. I probably need to attend a meeting or two. I just feel so stupid. I also don't have the guts to call my doctor or my pharmacy because I want that back up so bad. Man I used to get so excited when I picked up that full bottle from the pharmacy!! I would be swallowing those things before I got half way out the door. I would joke that I felt like "House" (a show about a doctor addicted to vicodin-in case u haven't seen it). I thought it was so funny but it's so not!!!  Anyway yes today is day 6-woot, woot!  I have church tonight and I e-mailed my pastor the other day and he is there for me too. Thanks for listening to this whiny butt ;-)

[kyle505]

Night is harder because, obviously, you've slogged through another day of detox. Your mind steps in and starts the chatter. As many have said before, you'll have bad days mixed with good. I'd have a wonderful day, figured I could declare myself "clean", and then the next day would be crap. But honestly, the more clean time, the less that happens.
I'm very proud of you; you and your loved ones should be proud of you too.
You've got a tough road ahead - you're about over the physical detox hell - and got the mental stuff to deal with. But I have no doubt you'll manage just fine. On to day 6 - almost done with your first full week clean.

[Nursey7]

Night time seems to be so much harder!! I felt so much better today but now I feel like I am losing it again. Crying, pissed off, agitated-I guess I just want a full bottle of Lortab!! I really hate this crap and this damn depression!!!