Taper or cold turkey

[Nursey7]

I have been taking hydrocodone 7.5/500 for about 7 years after a major surgery and fibromyalgia. I want off this crap. I have to take way too many to feel good; it's miserable!!  1 have 15 pills left and am going on vacation in 2 weeks. I want to be off these and feeling better by then. I am on second day cold turkey and I have not slept, constant headache, severe muscle pain, resless legs, irritable, gi symptoms, crying constantly. I don't know if I should use these last 15 or continue cold turkey. Unless I take all of them at once they won't get me high. I have such a tolerance now it's terrible. I don't feel life is worth living right now and I hate that feeling. I am not one that would ever harm myself just feel awful. Help please!!!

[waterLilly7]

ha! you made me cry too. So glad you have thise great attitude, keep it up, you are going to win for sure!!

hugs,
Lily

[Nursey7]

Day 5 today and I am not feeling like a caged  lion anymore. I don't feel like a cheerleader or prom queen either (wait a minute-never cared for that group anyway-sorry).   I did take Ativan 1 mg this am
though because my pulse and BP were up. No fog today-it's gonna be a good one!!  ;-)
I truly thank-you all for being here for me.  I want to give back when I can but I need to be a bit more stable to help others!!!

[Nursey7]

Thank you so much for the encouragement and your genuineness!!
You have no idea what it means to me!! It made me cry to realize what my family and I have been missing out on. I feel like such a loser but I neec to let go of that talk and move on.  Oh yeah I am ready for that big "O"!!!

[waterLilly7]

congrats!!! You are staying strong and you will beat this.
I am on day 61 here and feeling great! That anxiety goes away. it really does. I thought it never would, i panicked and thought that I would be a new strange case and the anxiety would never go away and I would be trapped in it for all eternity .....  BUT,,,, it went away, lol, it is the toughest part in my opinion, that feeling of dread, but it wanes, I promise. It al goes away, the sweats, the anxiety, the tiredness, it all goes and you are left with your wonderful life back.  You will smell smells that excite your senses, like rain and flowers, and foods, and you will taste  again, love food, and music sounds so much better, and it gets into your blood, you really can JAM with it, you know? and you laugh again, laugh from your gut, it's wonderful, I can't believe I was born with such great brain chemicals, adjusting everything for me, and I wanted to change those chemicals with pills, ugh, so glad I jumped off, and so glad you are too!
this may be TMI for you, but that first really good orgasm is soemthign to look forward to too, lol, and when you are in WD you find that part of your brain kicks in BIG TIME, lol, you will see what i am talking about.

stay the course, stay hydrated, and when you can't eat, drink Ensure or soemthing comparable liek Booost or Herbalife, and keep posting, you can do this!!

hugs,
Lily

[Nursey7]

Well Mr. Kyle I will try not to make a fool out of you!! I am giving it my all but this was a rough day!  I really thought my butt was headed to the ER with a heart attack LOL!!  Thank God for home health cuz I was able to take breaks and schedule appts when I was ready. Just finished my computer work and it's 4 am!  I figured I probably haven't lost too much sleep anyway ;-)
Anyway I can't thank you enough for being there; it has truly kept me from relapsing!!!

[kyle505]

I'm gonna go out on a limb here - in the relatively short period of time that I've been on the forum I've seen a few people come and go, and I have to say that you seem to be one of the strongest and most determined. So, I will predict that you will beat this, hands down. It won't be easy, and you've got a little ways to go, but I know you'll make it.
So now you have to do this or you'll make me look like a fool - and that's what I do best.