Taper or cold turkey

[Nursey7]

I have been taking hydrocodone 7.5/500 for about 7 years after a major surgery and fibromyalgia. I want off this crap. I have to take way too many to feel good; it's miserable!!  1 have 15 pills left and am going on vacation in 2 weeks. I want to be off these and feeling better by then. I am on second day cold turkey and I have not slept, constant headache, severe muscle pain, resless legs, irritable, gi symptoms, crying constantly. I don't know if I should use these last 15 or continue cold turkey. Unless I take all of them at once they won't get me high. I have such a tolerance now it's terrible. I don't feel life is worth living right now and I hate that feeling. I am not one that would ever harm myself just feel awful. Help please!!!

[Nursey7]

Why does it feel like this third day is the worst?!! I can't stop sweating and I am so agitated and anxious. I am sitting here mad at myself for flushing this pills. I don't know how people do this!! I have to go back to work tomorrow and I don't know if I can do it. I am a nurse and a psychiatric one at that, which makes me feel more stupid. How am I gonna listen to people's problems?? I know I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself for what I got myself into. I did at least clean the house today; I guess I should be thankful for that!!!

[Nursey7]

Thanks for still being there!  I took some Nyquil and a Robaxin, probably not the best thing but hey I slept like 4 hours straight!  I am so glad I flushed those too because I guarantee those babies would have been in my mouth last night before bed ;-). It really is great knowing there are people out there understand and truly care!! Appreciate it :-)
I am up and getting ready for church!!

[kyle505]

It gets better. Just keep telling yourself that. A quote that helped me..." count the minutes, count the hours. Whatever it takes to get you through".  You started this thread 11 hours ago! You are that much closer to your next full day clean. Ride out the next day or two and you'll be over the hump. Be proud of what you're doing and what you've accomplished so far. Keep posting.

[Nursey7]

These aches and pains are horrible and so is the nausea. I am just praying for an hour or two of sleep tonight!!  

[kyle505]

I did the same when I flushed the last time. I waited to see if any pills floated to the top. I probably would have scooped them up and taken them. Gross - from toilet to mouth. Pitiful.

[Nursey7]

Thank-you all so much. At first I thought this was kinda stupid and thought what am I doing? But I am so tired of hiding it from my friends, husband, kids, everyone. It's nice to be able to tell someone. I just wanna cry!! Kyle I flushed those suckers but man I wanted to reach in so bad and get those suckers!  I worked so hard trying to make them last to my refill. I took a good nap. I do have some great vitamins from the Thomas Recipe.