Tapering off.....not a choice

[Kuckma]

Hello everyone,

not sure u remember me....

I was convinced I could taper off just like that....
coming to find out, its not that easy!
Not sure if I can get it done, here I am faced with another refill!!!
The taper off is just not for someone like me, to be honest, coming to find out (and I am so shocked about this)
I am too hooked.

Hubby was gonna help me on this, but all it did is challenge our relationship. The last two weeks have been so tough on us. As of right now we are not even talking to each other, cause I tested his patience one time too much. I have been a real b****!
I have to do it cold turkey. Just not quiet ready for it yet. guess as long as I put it off the harder it will get.
I have been thinking different about the pills I take, there not 'my friend' anymore.

Just wanted to let you guys know 'where' I am in my quest. I'm frustrated and it is almost Christmas, don't feel very Christmassy.

[Kuckma]

Please dont give up, if you can do it then I can too, I know about the pain, I have constant Muscle spasams, constant all over my body, hurts so so bad. that was the real reason why I got onto the pills. I am still trying to find out togeter with a dr how we can stop them but my body does not seem to absorb calcium.

anyway, last night is over I am telling myself I am closer now again to where I have to be.
this is the hardest thing I ever did in my life far out! Including  3 C-sections.

I keep thinking maybe everyone on here does not know how I am, I can not life without my Norco, do they understand, I do not think I can be a "normal" person without norco.

so here are my thoughts of right now...............
I am going to try to get up now, take a shower, make some lunch for the kids, and wrap the presents, how far I will get.......who the hell knows......staring to cry just by thinking I have to move.....

[hiskidd]

Meant to say none of these people posting are contradicting themselves, but are telling straight truth.

[hiskidd]

I want to give up too. Last night was pure writhing in agony hell. But I don't want to ever have to go through this again. I'm not strong enough. I wish my body could go into a coma for enough days, and I could wake up and it would be over. But none of these people posting (I'm new to the site as of yesterday - "advice for a year of oxy") are telling the straight truth. I don't see much, if any, bantering of conflicting advice, so I'm trying to take them at their word. I have the same Christmas thoughts since I have 3 kids. Would love to refill my oxy prescription today and just keep staying that route, but I have to try and go with what I know over what I feel. God bless you.

[onthefence]

Klonopin (clonazepam) is a benzodiazepine class sedative/hypnotic, anticonvulsant, and anxiolytic. It is not technically or legally a "narcotic." However clonazepam can be abused and is a schedule IV controlled substance.

acheiving & maintaining sobriety is the most important thing but accurate info is important to, IMO.

[Kuckma]

lol your funny debbie, trying to relax, its so so hard, the constant moving around, my legs will not lay still.
OK and now the anxiety....ok this all seem kinda weird but my anxiety is mostly in my crotch! Most annoying thing ever. Feels like I always have to pee or maybe get down and dirty 24/7.
Yeah,I know funny huh? so annoying, since that is the last thing on my list right now...

[atthebeach]

actrually should say IT IS A NARCOTIC.