Thanks for nothing part 2

[questions4u]

I mean come on doesn't that just make it worse for you? I know it did for me. And just take a look at how many of you have relapsed....its just something to think about. I know I'm not perfect and I can't say I will stay on the straight and narrow, butI'm trying and everyday it gets a little easier and not coming here I'm pretty sure will help. Before you (any of you) take the time to rip me a new one because I'm only 1 1/2 days clean or whatever stop and spend the itme it would take to write to me and really think about what I'm saying, read old posts and just see if anything I've said holds any truth....

[LadySundown]

I'm so sorry. You are one of the people that did answer my post and would you believe I have the names of the people who respond to me written down?? lol You are one of the first, though there are not many.

Thank You and again I'm sorry for overlooking the day you gave me a reason to smile.

Please take care....LS

[Mangee]

As,you no doubt noticed when you first posted and got no reaction, frustration runs rampant here. We all have mre than our share. Every time we reach a bump on the road that is hard to get over, we get frutrated. You have just reached your first bump and it won't be your last. If you hang in here we will do our best to help you over that bump and any others that come along. There is every possible type of anxiety, paranoia, frustration. withdrawals and so on being dealt with here. The words "Why me," although rarely seen in print are very relevant here and you will see issues here that will boggle your mind at times. So, if we are a little lax at times in responding to you, give us a little nudge here and there. In the meantime. Keep the faith.    Mannie

[FLaddict]

i went back to 3days ago and found your first post i didn't see any others. i am sorry you feel the way you do. i will say that after being here a month i see alot of people post for the first time and they are never heard from again for whatever reasons. it helps to post a couple times to check in since posts get lost so easily and its hard to keep track of new people. i apologize for the way you feel. i hope you find what you need to overcome your addiction.

[Skyfoxglitter]

I finally found your post, UM there are 19 responses to that post so how is that ignoring anything??  Just curious

[LadySundown]

I'm sorry you didn't get the support you need. I have been here for a while now and since I'm on fentanyl patches, there really is no support for me either. I have felt unwelcome and left out for some time. I don't know what is so hard about someone responding to me. The only difference between me and them is I get my drug through a patch and they take there's orally.

I make another cut Thursday and I do it alone with no help or encouragement from anyone other than a person I met here.

I do know how you feel. You're one up on me because I wasn't asked to join the Yahoo thing by anyone. I have had yahoo since I got online ten years ago.

If I can help you with anything please let me know. I have time and I will help.

Take Care and please keep posting....LS

[Mangee]

Don't get the idea that you are being ignored purposely.
We all have our ghosts to deal with and sometimes we overlook someone who is looking for help because we are in the same position at that time. It is impossible to deal with everone at the same time. I for one have just logged on and saw your posting. It is not unusual for one or more of us to overlook a newcomer and I assure you it is not intentional. So, a belated welcome to you . I sincerely hope that you hang on here. Every new posting is another piece of the bridge we are trying to build here. Let us knoe exactly what you need and I am sure one or more of us will come through for you. Also, there are times when there is a delay in the transmition of postings and it could take various amounts of time to see them. Most of all we care and are willing,in spite of our own demons, to take the time, when able, to answer your questions and offer info. Don't be too quick to give up on us because you will find we won't give up on you.

[FLaddict]

beach didn't invite anyone specifically, he posted it to everyone in a post a few days ago.. don't feel that you weren't invited. everyone was. and i am sorry again you feel left out. this bothers me personally because i feel i always respond to everything you post even if i don't have advise.

[Mariyah2]

I have felt the same way too. I posted this on an earlier post today. I feel the board is very beneficial though. I will just read and keep quiet. I think   reading and just taking in information that is useful to me has helped me a lot.

[FLaddict]

i posted you earlier down there did you get it??

[beachtowel]

Why don't you give it another chance, if not I want to wish you the best of luck.

You would be missing out on a lot of good people here, sure we have a little drama from time to time but over all this is a very nice site to talk, to vent, to share with others....

[questions4u]

My first post was responed to yes but after that I reposted on my progress and got NOTHING and at that time I was really in need of at least a little pep talk or something, its not up to you people to get me through this its up to me, and god. I can't stick around here I feel this site it toxic to me, I'm not trying to come down on any of you we all are in a struggle but what I need personally is a site where people are moving past addiction into recovery and I don't feel I get that here. I apperciate those of you who have tried to welocme me, and extented your hand and advice but I feel my needs will be better met elsewhere...

[Mariyah2]

Thank you, I did get it. I was responding to the poster on this thread. you will see in past posts I have responded to people and never got a response back. I did in the beginning when I was on c/t's and I thank all who responded and helped me through that. I then slipped and after that I felt that no one responded to me. I really think it is a matter of a group of people that have become close over weeks of corresponding. I kind of feel like the "the new kid in class." So many of you have been kind and understanding, I do appreciate that. I hope this is not taken the wrong way, I only wanted to express how I feel.

[creek]

Hey lady,  I want you to know how much you meant to me when I first came on the forum.  Your support was so caring and meaningful.

I read here a lot, sometimes talk, sometimes don't, but I am PROUD of your accomplishments with the patches and your continued taper coming up!  

Hang in there and if you don't hear from me, know I am thinking about you and reading your posts.  

Peace~  Thank YOU again for being here for ME, now and in the past.

[FLaddict]

it wasn't taken the wrong way.. its just that hearing it from you and others is frustrating sometimes to me since i make it a point to post to everyone. i guess i am taking these things personally and i shouldn't they aren't directed at me. anyhoo..again glad you are posting and getting back at attacking your addiction. i am here for you if you need anything..

[Mariyah2]

I think I am a little sensitive today :0). You all have been kind and hopefully I will beat this addiction.
Warm wishes to all.

[LadySundown]

Thanks for your kind words. You are one of the few that have helped me a lot. There is no site for fentanyl patch users, and there probably should be.

I haven't posted half of my story because it wouldn't help. I have fought battles and won before with vic and valium. With any luck I'll get by on this one. I didn't want these horrible things, but the fentanyl was put on me after four surgeries.

Thanks again and I do consider you a friend....LS

[vicaddict]

The yahoo post was back a ways...and we were to respond to "it" , was not the other way around. Nobody was left out.
So now we all see that posts can get lost...many missed the post about the yahoo/na meeting thing. Perfect example.

In the same token...if one did see it and did not respond, well then there again would be almost the same thing. It was put out there, and if someone does not respond to it, well then they just don't and the person offering the help doesn't know that the person would like in on it.

Just some things to think about.

huggs
tracy

[creek]

Its ok you feel this way.  You know I have been here, out, mia, you name it.  I feel it is supportive, I feel it is just keeping my mind on things I shouldn't be spending ANY energy on.  

But here is the thing, one day you feel like talking, the next day you don't.  One day you feel like gushing truths...the next day you want to talk about freakin baking cookies.  It is just forum...the power comes from within.  You take the good, take the bad, decide for yourself and move on.  

For Me?  I don't have people in "real life" that know this junk about me.  I didn't know I wasn't alone in this and I have allowed this place to be a powerful and enligtened place for my heart to pause and take it all in.  I don't expect anyone here to heal me, I have to do that.  An unaswered post, a crabby comment, old friends vs. new...it's all bullshit.  It is up to each of us as indiduals to overcome addiction.   This is a tool to some and a lifeline for others.  

I am here to listen.

Peace~