Tonight was very hard for me.

[AS_Steve]

  Since I've pretty much stopped using the Oxy's altogether four days ago my mind has been much clearer and for the first time in years I can actually feel my true emotions. I guess I've numbed myself for so long that I'm just now realising how alone I really am. Since my divorce two years ago I moved into an apartment by myself and only see my two kids two or three times a week. Aside from them I don't have much of a life. I lost my job and went on disability soon after and because of my heavy Oxy use and zombie like state, my family members find it easier to deal with by pretending that I don't exist. The few friends that I still have are either married or are "barflies" and I don't drink so we don't hang out much.
  So here it is, another Friday night alone only this time I can actually think about how bad my life has become. I'm sorry for sounding so sad but the truth is that I do need to "get a life" and now for the first time I can actually put my mind to it. I had intended to make this a positive post so I'll conclude by saying that I look forward to my clean days ahead.

  Steve

[AS_Steve]

  Thanks guys (and gals), you are the bestest!

  I plan on getting to know myself first before I meet any new friends.

  Steve

[ShatrdKY]

I'm proud of you Man!!
Not alot of people out there can do what you're doin'
I can relate to the comments about your personal life.
Some of My "old" friends now know that i'm not taking the methadone anymore and for some reason they see it as Bad News!
My Good friends on the other hand have supported me since day one and they tell me things like "yeah the Methadone you" was very different than the new you! They say i look better and seem happier.
it's wild 'cause while i was on the many, many pills or "snorts" i never noticed!

Hang in there man! you'll start to see the REAL you more & more!

A wise man once said.........


"Do or Do Not. There is no Try."   ~ Yoda

[worried878]

Meetings are a great place to meet friends...somtimes u have to got to several before u find one that fits with your personalily...AA is an option as well...same principles..personally, i do not hang with my fellow AA/i chose aa/ members but since i quit i am more social and am with my old friends having fun....funny...well not funny...that the reason i used was it made me so social...then i isolated and was not worth a poop in the social scene...give it some time

[broknbck]

Sounds like you need to pick up some new friends?
I moved like 2,000 miles away from everyone i knew and had to do the same. So i found this site. Meetup.com  It is every kind of meetup group you can think of. I am in a hiking group, a singles group, a girls new in town looking for girlfriends (not gay, ha and yes i am a girl-can't change my profile). a wine tasting group

anyway, i have met so many new friends this way and really have had alot of fun.

[CR_ST_NA]

being truthful is BRAVE!!! yea a meeting so close...........sounds like devine intervention.. and the fact that you already looked into it could be your higher power guiding you there....... hope you find what you need............ keep posting too... so proud of ya..........christina

[AS_Steve]

  Corey, I hear what you're saying,

  Thanks,

  Steve

[AS_Steve]

  Thanks Christina, I might just take your advice. I actually looked into it yesterday and NA meets very close by every day at 12:15.

  I'm not brave, just truthful,

  Steve

[corey411]

Same advise is best for starting your new life and making new friends...one day at a time. Don't rush into relationships. Just work on you and the rest will fall into place as it should. Have patients and faith. Corey

[CR_ST_NA]

you know what you need??? a meeting.......just got home from NA and it helps with the lonlies soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much... i feel your pain.. you are so brave to post your true feelings, its the best therapy.. hope your blues turn to sunshine soon.......((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))christina