What is my problem??? UGH!!!!

[confused456]

What the heck is wrong with me? OK, don't answer that...LOL
Seriously, as most of you know, my Grandma recently passed away, and that in itself is devastating to me since she helped raise me. I just can not seem to get past these darn mood swings. One minute I am GREAT, the next, I feel literally like I have no reason for living....I am really sick of this.
Of course, these feelings bring on MAJOR cravings. It really is getting to me. I can take something someone says really bad and get depressed, and 5 minutes later, re-think it and realize that I am probably taking things the wrong way. UGH!! I guess I would like any advice or maybe I just finally needed to vent. Sorry all. Just need to scream or break something or anything!!!

[confused456]

Thanks Lonesome. I have been thinking about it all day. I do think I should talk to my Dr. about it. Thank you again. I am here if you ever would like to talk, you can message me anytime. I know just talking sometimes will make me feel a little better about things. Hugs....I hope things get better for you also!!

[LONESOME]

just keep an open mind I didn't want to be on then either but not that I'm and I see the difrence in how I act and also it has help me with my decision to stop the painkillers too I think that it has help me sooo much keeping me going when I just really have gone thru so much latetly really I don't know how I'm able to function with everything that I'm going thru and I'm not home under my bed with the lights off lol (even though I really want to sometimes) lol

[confused456]

Lonesome....I am not taking anything right now, but you all seem to think its a good idea,  
so I am thinking hard about it now. I guess if it helps get me out of this "funk" so to speak....LOL......ugh, I just try to be optimistic and I get so ..............I don't know!! Anyways, I am thinking about the meds. and may talk to the Dr. but I am not sure.

[LONESOME]

you sound just like me lol, I was feeling the same way are you taking any madication for depression? my doctor put me on lexapro and also trileptal that is suppost to be by bi polar and seazures but what it does is stabilizes your mood swings and I have to tell you it really works. I was the kind of person that would drawn in a glass of water and now I really analize everything in my life I don't jump into conclusions I don't thing everyone is out to get me or judging me maybe you should look in to it just for now while you are sorting thing out.
Good luck and just remember you only have one life.

[cathy5841]

hey, i wanted to again address your original post.  i understand not want ing to take pills of any kind.  but for some relief from symptoms it may be the way for you to go short term.  especially if it prevents you from craving.  and a possible relapse.  talk about an a$$ kicking. lol   antidepreeants are to elevate your mood and give you motivation.  they cant be all bad lol
love
cathy

[confused456]

lostdreams...LOL....thanks and I appreciate you!! You are a great friend!! Thanks.