Why do I do it?

[sadinmichigan]

Why is the first thing that comes to mind when things suck..to drink..smoke..or whatever..sick of it..

[bandnmom]

I think its cuz we trained our minds to think like that and the only way we can change it is to do a little "reprogramming"!

[newmanagment]

good ?  .... ima say because we need to train our minds to learn to cope with the life sux things without being intoxicated or high as a kite!!

[newmanagment]

wow, bandmom, i guess maybe we think alike LOL

[allaboutmary]

It's a pretty common problem.  We all look for quick ways to feel better.  Most of us have lost the way to cope. I think this is a big problem with addiction and one of the most important things to re-learn.  Hang in there girl !  You can get through this.

[allaboutmary]

LOL  I just read eveyones posts.   Ahhhh  great minds think alike. lol

[sadinmichigan]

I have been doing sooo good and now the first thing I want to do is..drink..and that wasn't even my real problem,,i don't know..maybe it was a problem i don't want any f'ing pills..I quit drinking 6 months ago at least..and that was about a year long "thing" after the horror of methadone..I'm serious.i am scarred for life by that..i don't know how to "re-train"..thats how my brain has worked since I smoked my first j..at 13..

[NautyOne]

alright which one of you is Paul......

[sadinmichigan]

even a stupid cigarette...

[cathy5841]

i think when we are in pain, we know these substances will numb it.  it is human nature to not want to hurt or be hurt.  we  have to learn to fight that urge.

[bandnmom]

Yes indeed..great minds do think alike!! LOL!!

[sadinmichigan]

not me

[bandnmom]

what do u meen "not me" ?

[sadinmichigan]

lol..someone asked who was paul.sorry..I'm not all together today  xo

[beenthere125]

I know exactly what you're feeling. My vice was pills and since I've decided to quit it seems I feel like reaching for something else to fill that void. I haven't drank in 11 years and have never been an alcoholic...but I've had three vodka coolers in the last two days. I'm also a smoker...and planning on trying to quit after this last pack...I hope I'm not doing too much at once...but I just really want to get myself as healthy as possible. It's never easy, but it's like newmanagement and bandnmom said...we have to teach ourselves how to deal without relying on these things. I'm just tired of watching my money go up in smoke...or down the pipe so to speak.
It will get easier...hang in there. :)

[sadinmichigan]

i understand what everyones saying..I think I just came to another realization about how much **** i really need to deal with..i was feeling so good to.I keep hearing it gets easier..i guess i can't see it yet.

[GoingToMakeIt]

I will say that we don't know how to deal with life's issues. That's why we did pills or drank or buried our heads in the sand. Your response is a normal one. It is just not a good decision. Drinking will for sure do you in right now. It is a depressant and that is not what you need. You are just two weeks into your recovery. Your body has barely begun to start healing itself. You brain is lacking the chemicals to think right. It takes time for these things to normalize.

[beenthere125]

Yeah...that's an unfortunate side effect...reality comes back. lmao!
I've been going through the same damn thing all week. I got so overwhelmed by all the sh!t I had been putting off while I was taking all these damn pills...I felt like if someone had offered me something to "help"...I might've really been tempted...or worse. However...today's been great for me...first day that I'm starting to feel a bit more in control of my emotions...but I still have a ways to go.
So...you're definitely not alone! :)

[sadinmichigan]

dammit!!!

[K Todd]

Because...

We are Addicts, who try to temporarily mask our problems..

Thats why...

Love,
Todd

[beenthere125]

Dammit??

[sadinmichigan]

so was i born an addict?  i don't get it.What makes an addict become one?  i am soo ticked off..(not at anyone here) at myself..i am sick of this

[beenthere125]

Some people are predisposed to becoming addicts. It usually goes back to childhood and the way you learnt to deal with your emotions and stress. Addiction is something that runs in my family...but we all have the power to fight it...it's just a matter of motivation. We can't quit because we have to...we have to quit because we want to. There's a HUGE difference.

[K Todd]

Don't know sweetie..

To me I KNOW that I was an alcoholic passed on thru family genes...nobody can convience me otherwise...

The drugs on the other hand, kind of creept up slowly, and before I knew it...I came to realize I was addicted, and they had to go (not all at once of coarse)

Some say "once and addict, always an addict"...but I strongly disaggree.

It would be like saying to someone who quit smoking 20 years ago.."hey did you know your still a smoker" - I don't buy into that.

I do know that I don't want or desire any of my previous addictions AT ALL..

Personally for me, if God sets me free - then "Free Indeed I am" !!!!

Todd

[sadinmichigan]

I can't even start to go over childhood..I am having enough problems with adulthood. but i do understand..I am just learning alot fast...trying to keep up