Today Sucks!

[Lotsatrout]

Just a little vent here.....

I'm on day 6 (again) and physically I feel pretty good.  However, last night I drank to many beers and got a little tempremental.  I usually don't drink a large quantity and don't really drink but last night I did.  My wife made a $1,000.00 payment that put me in the hole this pay period.  It's not like she takes our money or anything.  In fact, most of it was from her paycheck.  I knew she was going to make this payment but I didn't know when.

Anyway, I was a little frustrated and probably said some things that I shouldn't have said.  I don't call names and I'm not mean but sometimes when I'm a little tipsy I say things I regret.  I woke up this morning with a little hangover.... something I can proudly say I haven't experienced in quite some time.  I wasn't puking or anything just real blah....  A little reminder of why I don't usually drink!

Anyway, here I am today and I feel like a real idiot.  I just want to go crawl under a rock somewhere and I can't shake these feelings.  My day is ruined.  I'm having pill cravings real bad (don't have any so I can't give in) and I feel depressed which is something I'm not used to.  I just want the day to be over so I can start again tomorrow.  I've apologized to my wife but the damage has been done.  

Not really looking for any sympathy or anything like that I just needed to tell someone that I was having a bad day.  Thanks for listening (reading).  

Trout

[dove3053]

My ex husband is a drunk. The only thing is he never remembered what he did or said. Thank God he is my ex. Things got so bad that I had to do the old hit him over the head with the frying pan thing. It was the only thing near to me that I could protect myself with. Of course after years of abuse I probably hit him a little to hard and much to long. But I think he well deserved it and I guess other people did so too since he has been in many fights since we split and divorced.
Dove (the bird or peace)

[dove3053]

Watch out for the drinking. It can be as bad or worse than the pills because it's easier to get. I got a fortune cookie last week that said "A drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts." Since I was a drunk I have to agree.

So now that I am sober I have these thoughts and just keep my mouth shut, which is hard for me drunk or sober.

I know you love your wife. I think we all can agree on that. So buy her flowers or do something special.

What I want to know is if you really went fishing and if you did what did you catch and don't lie to me!

[what2donow]

.I ended my marraige because of my husband drinking and his  verbal/physical abuse while drinking.He was HORRIBLE and the next day it was ALWAYS my fault in some way or another.I know you are not that bad,but you are correct,the damage is done.
Do somthing special for her....if nothing else grab her and hold her in your arms.....that means so much, also tell her you know how wonderful she is and how much she sacrafices for your family.You are a good person and I think that will smooth things over.
DONT DO THAT AGAIN ya knucklhead!!

Loves
Jennifer

[StaggerLee]

When I'm hungover is when i'm the most vulnerable to get some more goodies.  You'll be alright tomorrow.  Just cool it on the sauce and it'll be a lot easier.

[angie269]

Be gratful today and thank God he has blessed you well enough to say 1,000.00!  You will make it!  God feeds the birds doesnt he?  Turn this attitude into Gratitude!  Have a great day!
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[GoingToMakeIt]

Yes, today is a new day. You can't change yesterday but it is within your power to change today. Alcohol is as bad as the opiates, in my opinion. There is no good drunk, if you know what I mean.
Today is a better day than yesterday!

[Lotsatrout]

ashamed..... you've got a great point there....  I think I will!  I just feel bad cuz the last person I ever want to hurt is my wife.  She sacrifices so much for our family it isn't even funny.  

Thanks to all of you for your comments

[ashamed03]

One thing I have learned from AA meetings is that at anytime I can start my day over!  Allot easier said than done, but give it a try!

[avisg]

sometimes it just helps to put it down on paper ...tomorrow will be another day ...Wifes tend to be pretty forgiving not to mention we have are moments as well :)
avis

[nogie1717]

Alcohol was a favorite of mine- really kicked in the pills and the pills were my hangover remedy.  A friend of my wifes told me when I got out of rehab that she stopped hanging out with us b/c of how argumentative and rude I was while intoxicated and how she enjoyed spending time with me now that I'm sober.  Booze does nothing good for your mouth.  Hopefully things smooth over for you here in the next few days.

[Becca911]

sorry about your day, remember tomorrow is a bright new day.

[IBKleen]

That will teach ya.

Are you working on the drinking problem as well? Hope so and wish you luck.