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[BearsFan1966]

So here I go again! Day 2 after a rough last year! Fell off my horse 5 fractures, Step-mom dies then in hospital 2 times for kidney stones! Wow Now I am ready to get off these little monsters! It's been almost a year and I found myself taking more and more just to get threw the day. I know what I need to do to get sober just depressed I would of had over a year under my belt! It stinks but I am ready to be clean and live my life again! I just need to vent.....My husband is not as supportive as he was the first time and my with drawls are not as bad. Just the no energy no motivation I hate! I just hope it does not take as long to feel me again....

[dominosarah]

Who knows where i came up with 8!!!  lol

[gnarly_1]

Hey good to see you back  but I wish it where under better circumstances...well your off to a great start  you know the drill just keep taking it one day at a time keep posting for support...Gnarly

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you Vic I so know this is what I need to do! When I caught myself taking more and more I saw that vicious cycle coming back!! I feel pretty good today going to try and go grocery shopping! ha ha we will see!. Its the stupid mind games that catch us off guard! A few stomach issues but at least I know what to do and it really is not as bad after the 11 year CT I went threw! Praying this will be easier!.
My husband is helping now that I have talked to him and let him know that I am done, of course he says"how many times do we have to go threw this?" Well it really is not my fault 5 fractures and kidney stones later....I am ready!!
My step mom died and I did not even really cry...sad thing these darn pills do to us!
You helped me so much last time and I really appreciate all your words of wisdom.
thank you so much xoxo

[VICourageous]

Hi Bears.
Even if I have not been on as much, your name did hit me today.
You know sometimes we can not help what has happen or going to happen.
I had all those losses and a heart procedure and hung in. It took almost 2 yrs for my brain to flip back and fire up.."Really"..Now it is over 2yrs and 6months. I have not look lately, but I was coming around GREAT!!!

Now I "MIGHT" have to have a double by-pass and the thought of meds just scares me to death. It was not to bad to walk away from the street drugs and the booze, it was these nasty ash pain pills that got me hooked.

I know YOU will be right back were you were and with even more experience then before. Hang Tight, Hang In and never give up..lol

Bless
Vickie

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you dominosarah but today is 3 days! lol

[dominosarah]

Welcome back!!!!  Congrats on 8 days!!  You made a good decision on quitting when you did.  The days will go by and before you know it these days will be a thing of the past.

[BearsFan1966]

really I feel pretty good! I feel like I did around 8 days the first time! I am hoping that this time it will not be as bad. last time I was on them for almost 11 years this time not quite a year.  You know just tired and depressed but other than that ok. I was so glad to see you still on here going strong! I am so proud of you! Just thinking how far I would of been if my horse did not throw me makes me sick...but I WILL do this again! love you!xoxo

[Bubbleguppie100]

I know, I am soo sorry for what you went through last year, it *****! But, you're such a strong woman and I know that you can get through this. One day at a time. Seriously, that's how I love my life now. One day at a time. Love you too! How are you feeling?

[BearsFan1966]

aww thanks Bubble! Its a rough road but I know I can do it! Just heart broken over what has happened last year and the fact I have to go threw all this again!...But I want to be were I was so here I am!

Love you tons!

[Bubbleguppie100]

Aww my favorite Bear! When I saw your name, I literally dropped everything to stop by and show you some love. You were one of the Angels that supported me and took me under your wing when I first came on here over a year and a half ago. Bear, you really helped me kick my terrible pain pill addiction and for that, I am so grateful. Now, I want to help you and support you. If you need anyone to talk to/vent, I'll always be here for you. Thank you so much, you and a few others saved my life. Xoxo

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you so much! I know its tough but worth it just got to get over the hump~

[refills]

Great Bearsfan, it's good to see you up and at em again. Now you have a plan and the future looks bright for you. Go get them...ike

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you so much msdelight

[msdelight]

Hey bears welcome back! So sorry for all you've been through. Here as well if you need to vent.

[BearsFan1966]

So glad to be back! I am so sick again of this prison!!! I know I have a hard road ahead of me but so far not as bad as last time! Well you are now ahead of me!!! lol Love you tons! xoxo

[spider6]

Hey chickie, welcome back!  Ya, I'm sorry to hear you've had hurdles as well.  But you're a super strong force to be reckoned with....you'll do great. I'm here for ya though girl. Hugs xo

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you Clean can not wait to be me again! Just hope it is not as bad as last time! This site helped so much last time so here I am again!

[clean_in_ks]

Welcome back girl!!  Congrats on Day 2!!  So sorry to hear of all you've been thru, but brighter days are ahead, yes?  Even though you've done this before, we're still hear to help in any way we can.  Let us know how you're doing and keep posting, ok?  Good to see you back ☺