Pain and CRAVING!!!

[troubleinohio]

the other day i just posted how  i was 200 days clean. Now today Im craving really bad. WTH?? I mean I do have my back pain as always. It never goes away day or night and its agony when i first get up in the morning stiff as  a board in my entire spine. But this is nothing new, ive been this way for a couple years. I am in no way having one of my crippling severe back attacks which do happen to me sometimes. Im not stuck bent over in agonizing pain. I just hurt alot at my usuaal pain level. I guess today Im just fed up with it and tired of living this way and would so like to say SCREW IT and chew up a couple of vicodin. THankfully i have no access to any (even my regular doctor does not RX them anymore because he caught a patient selling narcs in his waiting room- i posted about this in the" Pill Count??"  thread a week or two ago)   anyways i havent had a day like this in ages where i craved this badly. I seem to have forgotten what to do with myself when i feel this way!

[snowflake620]

200 days clean and counting soon you will be clean201 so don't give in life is so much better clean and your kids deserve that hold them close breath in their scent and love them like crazy that will help with the cravings also keep posting you have great help here and you are such an inspiration to all of us just remember that good luck to you and remember we are here to help

[addict3]

I hope you are feeling better by now. Those cravingd will come less and less as a time goes by. I am a little over 200 days  and they are not a frequent or as strong but, hey do cross my mind from time to time....................Advil???   Tried any of that? It seems to help me with the pain other than that keep your mind busy and this will pass.

Try to get a little better on picking your NFL games, you seem to be having some trouble there!! LOL! Good Luck!

[cathy5841]

hey trouble, sorry about the craving...nothing like playing with the kids to remind ya why you dont wanna be on that rollercoaster again.  hang in there girl...this too shall pass!

[merrymaria]

yes for sure stay busy and try to get your mind on other things...the cravings will pass, we just have to hang in there and say no.   glad you re feeling better....maria :)

[dominosarah]

glad to hear you are feeling better.  Just stay busy and keep thinking positive.   sara

[troubleinohio]

thanks ladies i feel better already. Did some laundry, dishes, made lunch for the kids (my 5 yr old doesnt have school today), and played with them

[dominosarah]

Sorry to hear you are feeling this way.  Get yourself busy and tell yourself this is just a game your brain is playing with you.  You are stronger than those pills.  You have come along way and i know you dont want to go back to that life again.  It will only bring you down.  Go outside and take some deep breaths, go into the kitchen and cook, turn on the music, clean a closet but just stay busy.  Think of all the things you have to be grateful and thankful for.  Keep posting also........You can do this!!!  stay strong       sara

[kim715]

Sorry to hear your having a bad day.I had one like that not too long ago.I reached out to dominosara though and she helped me right through it,told me what I needed to hear and even offered to give me a kick in the rear if I so desired. You have come too far to turn back now.You owe it to yourself and your kids to fight it.Those pills are not going to fix anything,remember all the pain and heartache they brought to you and your family,you don't want to go back there again.You're living your life now not just surviving by depending on a pill bottle.Listen to some music,call a friend,keep posting,you do whatever it is you have to do to keep moving forward,going back to that life is not an option,not for you and not for your kids.Most importantly hug your kids because thats what lifes about,thats what makes life worth living,and it makes it worth living clean and sober.I'll keep you in my prayers today.just keep reminding yourself it's a craving and it won't lasts,and your stronger then that,look how far you've come.Hang in there and keep posting.....Kim

[Sunnyd210]

Im sorry you are having a bad day. U are stronger than those nasty pills. I know you dont want to get on the roller coaster again. Whenever I have a craving I tell myself 1 pill is too much and 1000 would never be enough!!