are you all always broke

[amc82]

I am not as bad as some I have read but am addicted and anytime I try to quit always find myself asking for more or getting them on the front and it is christmas and I can barely pay rent but spent 105 just this week on any street pain pill I can find. I am the only one working and there is no reason to be taking them except recreation and I can tell it has grabbed me. I need help bad and am trying to quit cold turkey. Dont even feel that good on them any more and cant sleep now cuz of them. Had to confess to my wife my problem and switch all funds to her account so I donr spend our money but dont want to be a loser. Spent 40 on pills today and have no clothes, am always broke and have to have friends cover me and take  pill and end up buying a red bull. Has lead to impulsive buying like you wouldnt believe...Please someone help with suggestions

[BeyondScrewed]

I usually post on here about me and poor me blah blah blah.
I'm trying to offer advice to others for a change.

Quit while ur ahead?  ABSOLUTELY!!!!! I make good money, but am broke all the time. In my 7 year addicgiin, I wudnt b suprised if the total amount was easily $50,000
No, that is not a typo. I am so ashamed I have basically become a shut-in other than spending time with my son. Please take it from me. $105 in a week? That is nothing compared to where you will end up.

[weaver71]

There is a moment between thought and action, that's when a decision is made. Many recovering addicts blur the idea of thought and an urge or desire to act. As a recovering addict, I am having to learn how to live in that moment of choice. All the time. That moment when the things that are most important to me guide actions is fleeting and must be grasped and built up. I know that I have known the right thing to do for many years, yet I kept behaving in ways that destroyed the most important things to me. When I approach a situation that might be a trigger or a high risk situation, I must be aware of that moment of choice, always on guard and remembering why drugs failed me. That's what's helping me to act a little less compulsive. You'll find your way.

[YesLife4Me]

I was and it just gets worse if you don't get control of it now!    You will eventually lose everything, sell anything you can, or steal to support your habit.    I actually have money in my bank account now (not a ton).   I can go Christmas Shopping, get my hair done and pay my bills!     Those pills enslave us physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially until we are morally bankrupt.  

[evolv]

i second that - get to an AA or NA meeting - it will help more than you can imagine - and you're not a loser, you're sick. someone with parkinson's or the flu isn't a "loser" and neither are you. i have been going to AA for months and I have met writers whose books I have actually read BEFORE meeting them, a photographer whose work I knew, and a filmmaker a lot of people know - and i have met people not at all famous, all who went through the same thing, all who felt the same things you're feeling right now. i feel you brother, hang on, get HELP and stop the red bull too - i know when i drink more coffee, i get more jittery, and that makes me crave the pills even more. drink lots of water, eat some candy and keep your brain busy. come back here and post for support.

[ang_811]

The disease has its grips on u. U sound like ur at the jumping off point. U wanna quit but can't. That's where its bad...I remember in my active using id spend every single dollar on whatever I could get for my next fix. I work as a server and for many years I spend every tip I got to cover my habit. That's all I worked for....I went to any length to get my fix. Now today I go to any length to stay sober. Can u maybe c a dr? They help addicts all the time to get off pills. There will b no judging as they understand its a disease...maybe look up na meetings? U will b n a room full of people who won't judge u and who will understand u. They will show u unconditional love. It's been a blessing to me. Those meetings r like my medicine, they help me to live longer....good luck and keep posting Herr. If I hadn't found this website when I did, I'd def believe in my heart I wouldn't b here. This site guided me n the right direction onto getting my life back. It has saved my life.

[IBKleen]

You will broke as long as you spend money that you don't have on drugs. It will get worse and you will come to the point of doing anything, such as stealing or whatever.

Stop he madness and put the drugs down. Lose all contacts. Seek outside help. If you put half the effort into your recovery as you do your active addiction you will still be in a better place. Do this for yourself.

[this_big]

To answer your question...yes. Its funny you mention the impulsive/ compulsive spending. it seems like everytime im high i tend to blow a ton of money, on BS... $30 at the corner store. its rediculous! I dont know your history, but it seems like this may be your first time realizing you've got a problem. My "suggestion"...Stop while your ahead!! It only gets worse. You Will find ways to manipulate money outta your wifes account. I do it every day. we become GREAT liars. It sickens me to think of the money i've spent over the last few years. good luck to you