cincee

[hippy]

it has aslways seemed to me whenever i used everything in my life would go wrong, when i used  i would get flat tires every week.
when i used i got arrested at least 50 times' for things that i was not even part of doing.
i think they call it murphy's law , well it always had a strangle hold on my life ,whenever i  did drugs.
I somtimes thought it was my father praying for me, so i
would say to him stop praying for me , i crashed my car,
lost my job and broke my ankle  that week.

there is the other side of this story, once i started on the
road of staying clean the oppisite happened, everythin that could go right did, instead of spending my money on drugs,
and buying 5 dollar tires at the junk yard  i, bought sears steel belted raidels and never got a flat agian.
i never got arrested agian, inever lost my job agian,
i got custdy of my kids, ect, ece,
when i got clean and went to meetings it was like i was invisible
to the cops, and invisible to bad things coming my way.

i am writing this because  cincee posted that the only na meeting she could find was i the bad lands,in her town
and she would not go there unarmed, well my experence
has always been ,whenever we make that effort or surrender to
go to meetings , we seem to be invisible to trouble.
i grew up in the bad lands in philly so i understand her concern.
when ever i went back to the badlands to start meetings
or attend them i was a little leary but nothing ever happened.
CINCEE -call the na hotlone and ask , there are a lot of meetings not listed , talk to smeone sbout ,in your area.

[athena]

You poor wittle baaaaaaaby...........lol Shes a real pain in the neck huh?I really do feel for you.If someone in my family oicked this week to visit me,Id probably move lol.Call that doc back and tell him he better take good care of you!Better yet,give me his number,I'll set him straight!I do hope you get something to help the pain.NOT THAT!lol Tell your sis to keep her little hand away from your little hand.........I'll check back later to see if you've posted.I'll listen to you complain.

pix

[CinCee]

She's going to be here in a couple hours and my neck hurts.  wah,wah,wah
I want to start the prednizone, but no call back from the doc yet.  Where are we when we need them???

[CinCee]

Just wanted to let you know, that I've gotten a lot from your posts.  When that yelling was going on, I was an in serious w/d, and completely, totally ignored it.  I've no idea what even happened, I had so little use for it.

[bmac]

I haven't even had the script filled and already I feel guilty,is that addiction or what.But don't worry, it won't be like the past.I have put up blockades to keep me from using any length of time,it just the mental part.
Sean I sent you a reply back and I meant every word.You are doing the right thing for your family,no doubt.

Pixi,
  Like in an earlier post I told you would never be able to get rid of me that easy.We'll see when Bama comes a knockin'.
Hey, like the Auburn thing?Man,you just don't know how bad the rivalry is here.I mean it's hate pure hate.It's worse than
the democrat vs. republican thing to these people here in Bama.
But I just watch and pull for my team and don't get to wrapped up in the hatred of it,hell it's kids playing football for God sake.But in the same breath        ROLL DAMN TIDE!!!!!!
                             THANKS,
                             bmac

[athena]

First things first....Whats the name of your doc?I can be there by tonight lol You are right about talking to your wife.She will appreciate the honesty.I can tell that you really love her and im sure she loves you and will give you support through this troubled time.As for people not posting back to you,your right,that is their problem.I really never saw you post anything that was that bad.We are all touchy with our feelings right now,but conflict is sooooooo stressful.the people that really care about you will not turn your back on you.Anyway,I NEED some other hillbilly to pick on lol Guess your stuck with me.

pixi

[Sean5110]

Bill,

Wow, day 48! I came here when you were on day 22. I don't know why I remember that but I do. You are inspirational to me, especially given that you have real pain issues. I have no pain issues. I never have. I've used to get high; there has never been one shred of legitimacy to the pain pills I've taken.

It must be very difficult to be faced with taking another pill. You've worked so hard to get away and now they're being forced into your hand.

Thanks for all of your encouragement and, given I'm still at the very beginning, please don't forget to offer a prayer here and there as you are inclined.

Thanks,
Sean