methadone and suboxone withdrawal HELP!

[desperatechezzzoo]

September last year i decided to go onto methadone AGAIN (stupid stupid stupid) but it did give me the freedom to get my depression and life sorted. I did not want to stay on it long long term as it makes me feel trapped having to go to the chemist everyday with the exception of a 6  take-aways a month. I also like to go overseas and have organised a family holiday to Bali and know that it wont be possible for me to go if i'm still on it so in February this year i started rapidly dropping my dose which was 45mg down by 2.5mg a week. I was doing so well was not having any withdrawals at all. I got down to 10mg when i decided I can do this i will go cold turkey OMG! I had forgotten how horrible it was (i had detoxed off methadone in 2000 using subetex) So today was day 11 with no methadone, I was at my wits end not knowing how much longer i could cope without falling into a heap and losing it. I live with my mother and my 4yr old son who i do not wish to see me this way again so i am putting on a brave front so to not bourden my mum with this AGAIN. So i went to DASA 2 days ago to get medication to help with the leg cramps (TORTURE), gut cramps and something to help me sleep (more torture) My head emotionally is coping its just the pain i cant stand it. the meds worked that day but yesterday back to the pain again at my wits end i went back to DASA and decided to try a low dose of suboxone 2mg. wow i feel much better but now im freaking out cause if i feel this much better im scared im going to go through it all over again.I am only doing a 6 day course of the suboxone i think dropping everyday. Im so scared that i have just made myself go back to square one. please help me understand. have i done the right thing should i do this 6 day course of suboxone or just forget about it and get on with the agony of withdrawal? Will the suboxone help my methadone withdrawals or just prolong the inevitable? Please someone help me as 2morrow i have to go to the clinic and get another dose of the suboxone, should i do the course or not am i making it worse? HELP

[desperatechezzzoo]

Thank you so much. I thought i had a good plan last time i quit but i just substituted my addiction . which became my husband lol. when my marriage fell apart this where i fell. back to my saviour and my hell drugs. I think this time i know exactly what i want and am doing it without the aid of a man, for me and my kids. they need me i know that now. For the first time in my life i dont feel depressed i must say that is thanks to the time i had on the methadone to find myself and start liking myself. Never have i been this happy except now im in agony. I know i cant go through this without any pain its just so hard to suffer in silence and not let the people close to you how much your suffering. i wont make them go through this again. I wont be a bourden to them again so am trying to keep up with normal daily activities and chores which im finding really difficult. As for my main concern do u think it is wise for me to do the sub for this short amount of time? will it just make it worse when i stop it or will it just help take the edge off the days im on it and a few days after? sorry if im repeating myself my head is a bit jelly. again thank you. this site is really going to help me i think

[worried878]

everyone is different so it is hard to say the right thing for one person is the right thing for another...jumping off methadone at 10 mgs is not easy if u have been on it for a while...methadone has a long half life so it will take up to a month to get thru the physical part...but it will get better....if 2 mgs of sub is making u feel as if u can get thru this..the sub will hang around for a few days after u stop it as it has a long half life as well..and 6 days should not be a long enuf time on the sub to have to wd from the sub...but there is a good chance ur methadone wd will still be going on 6..even 8 days from now..the mental part will be going on for a while to come perhaps..thing is u have to have a plan that can get u thru the next 6 days plus the next 6 yrs as well...2 mgs is a low dose of sub..and if it is helping u that much then u may be close to being done with the physical part i would assume...it is the mental part///avoiding relapse that is important...and if u have done the work to stay clean this go around u will come out on top..good luck and keep posting

[rooster002]

Hi    I am going c/t  and its rough, real rough. I hope you start to feel better soon.  I cant tell you to not go tomorrow because I havent experienced the meth w/d. But I have read people saying that the suboxone is just as bad....  Hang in there and know that your not alone.