day 4 of w/d from every opiate except heroin

[cazo66]

I am very new to this type of thing (forums) but i just dont know where else to turn. Rehab is out of the question as i have a bunch of kids and a job that i cannot leave for extended periods.  Ive been through w/d before and by far the mental part is the worst for me.  On tuesday i was discharged from my doctor because i didnt have the drugs they were prescribing in my system.  120 10/325 percs and 90 10mg oxys. ( back surgery ).  id buy norcos vics percs whatever off the street in between doc appts.  ive been discharged from 4diff.drs.  this is so humiliating..  i am a professional person and a professional drug user.  Now im done!!!!!!  im on day four and doing fine with the physical stuff but the mental part is really doggin me.  constantly knocking..  im depressed and feel like ****.  sorry about babbling but you all seem very supportive.  my wife is also supporting me, but if youve never been through this then you just dont really understand.  i feel like i wont enjoy life, hobbies, kids, work, social events etc. without being high.  

[luvmygirls98]

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[cazo66]

thanx for the input!  i hope you are right...  woops i mean heck yeah  you are right!!!!   i forgot i gotta stay positive!!!!    

you guys are all great thanks huge

[cazo66]

thanx for the advice.  thats just what i need.  a good kick in the a     s        s.  you are so right and im gonna give it my best to stay positive!  im really sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself but this **** has me so twisted that i just cant help it.  i thought i was a pretty strong willed person until i got mixed up with these dam pills!!

[kmb22]

i am 45 days clean of roxicotten/vikes/perks/xanex etc. etc. and let me just say......

you will enjoy life again, even more so than before you were on the pills.  you will feel so proud and so accomplished that you have successfully quit and life will become even more beautiful.

i never thought it would be possible, but it is, you just have to give it time and some patience.

your body is rebooting and after years of abuse i feel blessed that i even get to feel again.  

hang in there.

[Calamity2]

Congrats on the clean time !!   Yahoo!!!!  Hey I really hear ya.  One of my sponsors told me years ago when I was in wds from another substance.(booze)  that I was the most negative person he ever met. I was shocked. But he had me do a exercise of positive thinking. He told me to go sit on a bench where alot of people passed by and just look at each one and say to myself or them .  Nice hair, nice watch nice pants.  Anything positive. You need to spend time in positive thought. IT DOESNT MATTER IF IT MAKES SENSE. The I cant, I didnt, when I used my energy was bigger , better, etc,. DONT do it. TURN you mind away from negative thinking. It will wear you down. YOU can make !! You are making it!!!!  You are doing great !!!   Right on schedual!!   Go for it you are your own hero and you are getting your life back!!  It's going to be GREAT!!!  

[cazo66]

i took your advice and got a protein supplement and boy did it give me a boost.  it didnt last long but i guess that can be expected.  i will make sure i up my protein intake.  well im on day 5 and finally got a little sleep last night.  i woke up feeling pretty decent at about 430am  but now its almost 10 and im fighting the anxiety and aches again.  i do however have flashes of really good and excited feelings  but they dont last long at all!!!  back to work tomorrw.  it will be the first time without being "medicated" in a long time.  im pretty nervous about it because i dont know who i really like and dont like.  this sh   it has me so twisted!!  im gonna look into getting a substance abuse counselor tomorrw.  i need to stay focussed some how.  browneyedgirl....  you hang in there!!!  believe me i know what a struggle it is!!!!  you are not alone!!!! i am here if you need me!!!!

[dbrowneyedgirl]

your commets posts AND feelings fit me to a TEE! hang in there. Hang in here. together we can all get thru this and eventually be the person we forgot how to be without using. youre storys mine. i need you to be on here. can ya do that? for me? pllleeeease??

[fogmussher]

The whey protein seemed like a big turning point for me. I didn't know about the Thomas recipe but several people on here have said it helps. Also hot tub or sauna, anything hot bath of shower. All these things will help. Some where in the Health pages I read you may want to stay in the hot tub for days. And I know exercise is the last thing you want to do but keep moving if you can. You have been on this a long time. I guess you didn't have a chance to taper down. You have come this far though. Far enough to really know you have done serious damage. I can't stress enough about the whey protein. I was literly dieing and couldn't even stand up.You think you can go to work? are you off till Monday? You will be different but try not to be anxious about it. Everyone will see the better you!

[cazo66]

oh and by the way i have been "medicating" since back surgery in 03.  started out medicating but you know how it goes,. turned to straight up abuse.  thanx again it feels good to talk

[cazo66]

thanx for responding.  by no means am i breezing through this.  i have had all the nasty w/d symptoms and even missed work on thursday.  now im just getting waves of all the classic symptoms.  i hope youareright about finding a deeper me, because idont know who i am anymore.  i was always high so i enjoyed everything and everybody..  thanks again!  im going minute by minute but the anxiety and depression are really getn to me.

[fogmussher]

Was I too quick to respond? when you said you were doing fine with the physical part I guess I latched on to that and got all excited. Have your wife look for some whey protein  that seems to help the depression. And the Thomas recipe helps. did you read the Health Pages. The aminos are really important. It took me several days to find stuff but its all on here. Every little thing is worth the try. And just basically getting yourself educated about what you have been doing to yourself will help motivate you to keep going.

[fogmussher]

You are off to an amazing start! How long have you been medicating? You are very lucky to be at day 4 with no effect. I want to know your secret.
You will enjoy life. And you will find that there's a much deeper you. You don't realize how much of you has been missing. There will be a huge number of things open up to you. It won't happen immediatly but they way you are going now it may???? I am waiting to hear form you tomorrow though. It is too good to be true i'm afraid. usually by now you wouldn't be getting out of bed. Maybe the moon is right or something crazy like that!

Welcome!

[milfmichelle]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. Have you thought about NA? It has helped me tremendously with the mental side of this disease. Actually, if you go to the website, you can read the Basic Text online. Hang in there!