I'm glad you wrote to your sons. You let us see your inner most thoughts. How loving and caring you really are, and how you are grieving for your sons. I have battled with depression since I was 19. The fentanyl just made it worse.
I have always had a theory. I think people who are depressed are master's of deception. I am amoung them. We know when to laugh, when to say something witty, how to make people think we're just dandy. In reality, we don't feel that way at all. We have merely learned to survive in a world that doesn't understand us. I feel I can be open on this forum because I have seldom said any of this before.
Hang in there and you have my eamail (which I haven't checked yet today)..oops
Big hugs......C
Hi Kim!Sorry about the depression.I know all about that lately.I took only 5 mg of lexapro and still some anxiety and just overall crudy feeling.My doc is going to rx me some anxiety drugs on monday.just for a week or two until i get used to the lexapro.We have a small storm rolling in tonight.we need the rain.I hope my new cat[chewy]isn't afraid.I think your letter to your sons was good therapy for you.It is good for us to vent.After we lost Bryan i vented on the walls in the garage.now i have sheet rock work to do.i think puting my feelings out on this laptop is more healthy.I hope you feel better.keep posting.Your Friend Bruce