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[clicked]

Hi this is very hard to do. I am sick as a dog and can't stand it anymore. I have been taking lortab for a year. I am day 3 of this torment.  Been trying the home remedies but nothing makes me feel ok. Was so dehydrated I went to the ER last night and got some fluids put in me. Oh yeah and some demerol and toradol for the migraine I had developed. I felt good for about 2 hours then the drugs wore off. I tried to eat but it just stuck in my mouth very hard to swallow food. Gator aid goes down better.
I have scripts but too soon to fill them. Guess whos fault that is. Mine of course. I have fibromyalgia. it hurts so bad but honestly not as much as this withdrawal does. this is so sick . I take lortab 10 twice a day except when I am really bad then I take 3 in 24 hour period. I thought I was safe because  I dont take handfulls of pills.
My question is when does it stop.

[Teresa1717]

They are right! If you dont cancel your scripts, your will power isnt strong enough. I had to cancel one and it was the hardest thing I did!! I wanted to cry and when I hung up I stopped myself from calling right back but I am SO happy I did! I undoubtebly would have relapsed in the first few days if I hadnt!

Like Vicki asked, about the support groups or therapy, You should really do them (one, or all)  They have helped me A LOT!

You should be on Day 4 right? Its going to start getting easier very soon. Your almost turning the corner. You dont want to live through these 3 days like you have to only throw them away now do you?

You can do this...Keep posting

[Pat1956100]

It's true if you don't cancel the scripts you will just have to go through this over and over again like I did.  Each time gets rougher too.
I just had someone come to my door and ask me if I wanted any percs and I said No.  I still can't believe I said No.  I felt so shaky and upset after.  I kept thinking I should run after him and get some but I knew I would just be back here in another week or month trying again.  It's a vicious cycle and you just get deeper and deeper into this black hole of addiction.
It's just not fun anymore.  
Maybe try something natural for anxiety and to help with sleep.
I have found melatonin really helpful.
Let us know what you do with the scripts.\
Hugs
Pat

[vicki595]

You can cancel those rx's first thing in the morning, by phone. If you don't and they sit there...you know what will happen and so do we...

Are you planning to attend any kind of support group for recovery care? See a counselor?

[clicked]

Thanks Pat.  I am feeling somewhat better right this minute. Just some gastric problems, jittery and kinda nervous feeling. I think that is the worst I hate this shakeyness. Not sure that is a word. I am proud I have made it this far. I am trying to figure out how to keep myself from gooing to get the scripts I have filled. I am sorry you are in the same shape.  How are you holding up?

[Pat1956100]

Hi clicked
I am on day 3 as well and was also recently diagnosed with fibromyalgia.
I am gone through cold turkey before and day 3 is usually the roughest.  I think that you will start feeling better soon.  It seems to come in hard waves on day 3 but then it eases off and the waves come less and less and then stop.
The depression is horrible but that will go away too.  Once you start to feel better and get back into the world your spirits will lift.
I really feel for you.  This is not fun.

[clicked]

Just got out of a hot bath feeling a little better. I can almost remember what I used to feel like before I started taking the drugs. I have to get myself together so I can go to work on Thur night.  I called in sick last 3 nights. I had the flu. At least that is what I am calling it. Man I had H1n1 and didn't feel this bad. I am so shakey. I asked my husband if I needed to go to rehab or NA or something. He said he didn't know.  I also need to figure out how to handle the pain that got me where I am. I am a nurse I am supposed to take care of people. Seems I spent alot of time taking care of others and kinda skip me. That is why it was so easy just to take a pill and numb everything.