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[clicked]

Hi this is very hard to do. I am sick as a dog and can't stand it anymore. I have been taking lortab for a year. I am day 3 of this torment.  Been trying the home remedies but nothing makes me feel ok. Was so dehydrated I went to the ER last night and got some fluids put in me. Oh yeah and some demerol and toradol for the migraine I had developed. I felt good for about 2 hours then the drugs wore off. I tried to eat but it just stuck in my mouth very hard to swallow food. Gator aid goes down better.
I have scripts but too soon to fill them. Guess whos fault that is. Mine of course. I have fibromyalgia. it hurts so bad but honestly not as much as this withdrawal does. this is so sick . I take lortab 10 twice a day except when I am really bad then I take 3 in 24 hour period. I thought I was safe because  I dont take handfulls of pills.
My question is when does it stop.

[Norco1947]

Hi Clicked ,  I went to see Nemo # 2  on my day 9 with my grandkids ,
When Nemo's mother died i had to leave for 15 min;s . Here i was with all these kids and i am the only one crying .... The emotions take 2-3 weeks to recover but they do ....Ron  

[Norco1947]

Hi Clicked ,
The Lord helps those who help them self .
Scared is called panic , it's your brain learning to work without drugs , we all go thru it , it does end .
Now about the ashamed stuff , We are just human , We Scr*w up .
Start takeing Pride in your fight , Your choseing not to take pills ,to go thru pain for a few days to end months or years of the addicted no life .
Us husbands are dumb , we do stand back when we can't fix something ourselfs or don't know how . Trust me i have been a husband for 44 years next month .
Next month he gets a NEW you . He will let you know he likes this NEW you better much better . Who wouldn't ??
Stay positive you will get thru this ....  Ron  

[YesLife4Me]

That's great!  If you can focus instead on how what you are going through is a positive thing instead of how awful you feel, it does help.  I know when I have run out and didn't want to be, I was les' miserable vs when I chose to not take anything.  

[clicked]

Ok I ate some chocolate chip ice cream and my stomach feels a little better. These crying jags are rediculous. OMG! I have been feeling so sorry for myself! About time for a hot shower I bet, maybe I could calm these jitters down. Wow it is helping me to tell all of you my troubles.Thanks for listening and giving me the feedback.

[YesLife4Me]

Hi and welcome!  You are not alone (although it feels like it right now).  No judgement here...we have all been or are in your shoes.  Many of us started out innocently like you.  If it helps, try to think about how awful you feel right now and that you don't ever want to go through this again when you think about how salvation lies in that scrip.  

[clicked]

Thanks so much Norco1947! I am so scared an ashamed of myself. I cant believe I am here in this situation in my life. People look up to me and if they knew I could loose everything. My husband has been where I am and he keeps a distance I think to protect himself. I am going to keep trying to make it. Lord Help me please!