Well, I'm getting to the end of day 4, and because of the recipes and help from this forum, I'm doing OK. Actually, a lot better than I had expected. I know that I'll be going through a lot of changes, good and bad, for a long while. But at least I know I can come here for support, and hopefully can help others by sharing. I did have a little coffee today, but am drinking lots of water and taking all supplements. I actually talked to a friend on the phone, put on makeup, and vacuumed my house! These were big steps compared to my zombie-like existence for the past 3 days. So far, I have no cravings for either the hydro or the oxy's, but I know that may still happen. I don't have any idea where they are. My husband hid them, and I haven't even tried to find them. I think it's from reading others' experiences of backsliding, and having to go through all of this again that's helping me to really want to stay away from them. It's like they stole all the goodness of my self, and an evil twin emerged. So, once again, thanks to all of you, and peace.
Sounds very similar to my story started at a size 8-6 went down to between a 0-4, like you I was thrilled and that was part of what kept me persuing them, I was afraid to be fat. As I told you I have an eating disorder to top things off. I don't and didn't like being an 8. So I kept going. I got to the point were I lost that really good feeling, and replaced it with erratic, hyperactive, incoherance. I would be so tired I couldn't think. I looked like death with my 5'5" med to large body frame at around 110-115pds. My husband said I looked like a little girl. You know how at first it helped you focus mentally, by the end I could still sit and concentrate for long periods, but I avoided things I needed to do, in order to do stuff like clean the house, organize, rearrange that was my fun. Mind you I still love the stuff but wont do it cause even if I say I'll only do a reasonable amount it doesn't work, when I feel that I wasn't at my peak I would pop more. I had the 20mg tabs, disliked the 30mg extended release tab that some of his bros ended up on so the stash would stop disappearing. Can you tell me how often you did it, and how much you got up to? If you don't mind. Just hadn't met anyone else with such a similar story. HEART TAEME
coffee is cafeen and is really no big deal.
it will dehydrate you and if you don't have a lot of liquids it
can make restless leg pain worse. if you are dehydrated.
I know this may sound like a stupid question, but has anyone found coffee any good as an anti-depressant during wd's? Or would it just counteract what I'm trying to do with all the supplements? Please let me know!
as far as getting to post, i live on the east coast
i have found that between 8 30 am and 9 am they open the fourm up for 2 postings.
so tomorrow monday try postin a question between 8 30 and 930 am
eastern time.
I don't know about emails I have seen a few, let me know if we can maybe someone can aswer that for us. I've been off for nearly a year. I have had some maybe twice in that time but not everyday like I was. The last time since I had a few was about 3mos. So I can't say that I'm all good. Ya, my husband takes it but theres no way its in the house he keeps it at his work cause I would take it all. He knows cause everytime he had it I stole it no matter where he hid it, I could find it. When he got really good at hidding it, it could take me up to 3-4days to find it, but eventually I would find it. He even hid it up inside the wiring of his car, I found it. Once a long time ago, I tried to steel it from his work, fortunately he works it an area I cannot access. But I did try. His brothers have suffered to, cause either they have been blamed for the missing meds or were taken off of it when they needed it. Mind you his bros were old enough that they would give it to me, or to their friends, sell it or whatever. So everyone was scamming from it. But now both the older of the bros are on 30mg time released, the younger is on cylert(I believe). I've tried ritalin too, I don't much like it. Anyway as far as B-vits, at first I'd take 2 per day just a regular b complex for about 1-2 weeks, then just 1 per day, I like to take it at night so I don't taste it all day. And by the way when I would take 2, one in the morning one at night. Cause if you take to much at once, your body just gets rid of what it doesn't need, so basically you would just be flushing the unneccessary B-vits. I also like melatonin for sleep, its been a good friend without addiction. Mind you melatonin often has b vits also, so make sure to just take one b-vit. Can I ask you, did you ever get to the point your hair seemed to be falling out? I don't know if mine was or not if just felt that way, I have really thick hair so besides seeing how much was in my brush I couldn't tell. I totally know what you mean about taking for ever, it got to the point I couldn't make it to class, work etc... cause I was to busy, hadn't gotten around to what I wanted to do. I could spend hours trying to clean the stove perfectly, to the point there wasn't any mess even in the cracks, around the screws etc... Also can I ask did you ever have cracks or splits around the corner(s) of your mouth? Let me know about the email, I would love to hear about your experiences? HEART TAEME