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no norco or vicoden this thanksgiving!
anybody with me? I'd sure love to enjoy thanksgiving normally for a change. clean. I wonder if it is even possible? I been trying to work a taper the past couple weeks, all i've done is keep it in check really at five 10mg pills per day (lately.) Holiday is in less than 2 weeks, looking for a safe taper (cuzz I'm a wimp) and to be totally clean for that weekend and forever after. Any thoughts on that? I gotta goto work every day too. Darnit. Hey this site is really helping me to keep this on my mind....anybody notice how a year can go by while deep down in the pits of this addiction and you just keep kinda ignoring it? Well i have been consciously thinking about this "problem" for a long time now, consistently over 2 weeks straight now, for every minute of every hour of every day (awake) I have been wanting to check this ****. Even while eating the little yellow or white jerks. Its already been a long few weeks and I aint even seen clean yet. For the holidays the devil tells me it wont happen for me, i'll just keep fooling myself. But I really want this and I really really really REALLY do miss the feeling that I used to get around the holidays. Cuz lets face it, maybe it was absolute euphoria in the beginning of our pain killer use, better than getting drunk, better than an orgasm, better than the first time making love to somebody, better than everything. Or at least improved on everything. but what now?? WARM AND FUZZY JUST DOES NOT EXIST while on these things. The good cozy feeling is OUT THE FRE*KING WINDOW right?!!! If you are just getting into pain killers, maybe a month or so in to taking and still liking them, RUN AND HIDE FROM THE B*ST*RDS!!! IT IS FALSE! YOU DONT FEEL GOOD, YOU FEEL FAKE!! dangit I need to listen to myself.
My experiance with pill's is no matter how many i have or how much good will i have at reducing that or thoses bottles of pill's will be empty by the end of the week depending on how many i have. I have even given them to my partner to look after & he's hid them & i'v looked & found them all you can do is your best. You do sound like you want of them you just haven't thought it throgh have a goos support system around you if you can? if not join a NA meeting keep busy it can be done you've just got to want it bad really bad all the best keep posting nat :)
If you've been tapering for two weeks, are you being successful at it? Do you have your pills counted out until your day comes? When is that day? If your going to quit you need a plan. You can't just TRY to quit. Are you going to go back to the doctor when you run out? If you want to taper get a pill btle and only take the amount you've aloted for yourself. You'll start to experience slight w/d's when you reduce your dosage. You have to tell yourself you really really want to quit, and then stick with your plan. I can't taper. I tried, I made a plan, went to the doc got 120 and they were gone in one week. The last day i took vicodin i took 9 pills, then i quit ct the next day. I think tapering for some is a way to walk the fence between quitting and not quitting. There is a voice inside your head that justifies your usage, Tell the ***** to shut the **** up, and make up your mind to quit. I worked during my withdrawls, I sat here and cried silent tears at my desk some times, I prayed, I read this forum, and when I got home, I bawled my freakin eyes out. Just my opinion tapering is not the way to go. If you are going to taper and your not successful at it, after you've tried and tried and tried, Give the pills to someone to dispense to you, or WAKE up, cos your fooling yourself.
I couldn't have said it better myself. I'm tapering off vics and understand exactly. For anyone else out there, beleive it. The fun goes away and the slavery to addiction begins. Have a great Thanksgiving and best of luck to you
joievicman
joievicman
I hear ya about wanting to take them on Thanksgiving. I'm having about a dozen people over and it would be nice to have that warm, fuzzy feeling and have the pills to help give me the energy to clean (for some reason, that's what they always did for me) but I can't. I'm just going to drink a couple of Red Bulls and get to it! lol! I MIGHT allow myself one glass of wine with dinner, I haven't decided yet because I feel that now isn't the time to have any crutches.
Ok, come on over to "me and Joe and you till Christmas" We'll be cheering each other on in there. We're both going to take 5 pills tomorrow. I can't wait!!
I'm in!
Tomorrow my plan is to cut to 50 mg. I'll cut out one of the 20 mgs and use 2 of my hydrocodone 5mgs to make 50.
How about you two?
Tomorrow my plan is to cut to 50 mg. I'll cut out one of the 20 mgs and use 2 of my hydrocodone 5mgs to make 50.
How about you two?
you are in the same boat....I dont know if thers much difference between oxy and hydro...but I'd like you to join me on the thread I started where we can develope a game plan for here to Christmas. so joe19, magpie70, and me we are all right at about 60mg of something I guess?
lets make a success story and a gift to ourselves. I am available to post all day every friday, saturday, and sunday. and usually after about 5pm on monday, tuesday, wednesday,thursday.I want to kick this thing....I dont want to say for new years "ok this year I'm going to quit...." cuzz I will already be quit. I dont know.
ok joe19, i started a new topic called "me and Joe and you til Christmas" so lets postthere.and anybody else in the 5-10 per day range and wants to SERIOUSLY attempt this. I aint kidding.
I'm almost exactly where you are as far as dosing. Would you like to set a plan and follow it together? I'd like to shoot for Christmas, too. What an awesome gift to give ourselves, and loved ones!
Christmas sounds more realistic, to be honest. Unless you can spare a few days to lie in bed, which it sounds like you can't.
I'm planning to do a taper over the next six weeks, about 10 mg per week is what I'm thinking. (I'm on Oxycontin, 60 mg at present) Maybe we can support each other.
Whatever you decide to do, best of luck.
Mag
I'm planning to do a taper over the next six weeks, about 10 mg per week is what I'm thinking. (I'm on Oxycontin, 60 mg at present) Maybe we can support each other.
Whatever you decide to do, best of luck.
Mag
Christmas could work - and be thankful you're only coming off 50mgs a day. For me it was 350 - but I used sub. Do a 5 week plan.
haha funny slip of humor about the cold turkey thing and thanksgiving. sorry about that but I did get a chuckle out of it. thank you though for the response.
That would be a pretty rapid taper, to be done by thanksgiving. You'd still probably do some withdrawls. I myself went the cold turkey route and am clean 26 days today. Took Vics & Percs 10-12 a day for 3 1/2 yrs. Yeah, those feelings you get in the beggining (we call it the "AAHH FACTOR") do dissappear and they will never come back. Even if your clean for along time, you never get that feeling back. All you get is the s h it y feeling. So, I'm done with them, and I really haven't had any "cravings". Don't know why I haven't had the cravings, but thats ok!
Well, I hope you can do it, one way or another. You'll feel soooo much better.
We're here for you, so keep coming back.
Magi
Well, I hope you can do it, one way or another. You'll feel soooo much better.
We're here for you, so keep coming back.
Magi
hydrocodone. yea I take 50mg per day. agreed that its a rapid taper. maybe Christmas is a better goal? haha not really kidding though. I aint gonna stop thinking about this "problem" because thats when a whole nother year goes by. Hmmmmm
I am very afraid of Thanksgiving. I will be having about 25 people over and no little helper (pain pills) to help me get my house clean and everything ready. I have done this for many years and suddenly I'm not sure I know how to cook a turkey.lol I just keep telling myself ...don't worry if the house is not imaculate like before. It's all about family and friends. Sorry I don't have any advise about a taper, I am a cold turkey girl. and cold turkey is probably what i will be serving next week. lol Hang in there you are on the right track. You sound like you are ready to be done with this hell. Take Care Mary
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