last day without and scared

[sad1258]

Have been taking Lortab 10 for 4 years.  3 months ago got kicked out of pain clinic...got caught getting them from primary doc and pm..stupid!  I have weened from last rx..have one more left. No one knows what I am going through..have no one to talk too...I am extremely sad, anxious and trying to act normal...will I ever feel like I want to live again?????  Please someone talk to me........

[want2bme]

I do not know if the isolation is common or not but I too have cut almost all my ties to my good friends..I just never wanted to socialize with anybody in a social setting.  I would not avoid social gatherings but we used to have many many many get togethers with friends and for the past 3 years I can count on one hand how many we have had..Scary!  I already feel the excietment about getting back in touch with friends.  I mean real interaction not just facebook..lol  I thought I looked like a freak side show because I would cry at stupid stuff and laugh the next..I would laugh at myself for how crazy it was.  It gets better~this is prompted me to set little goals so I could have a feeling of accomplishment.  I have 5 kids so laundry and meals were a nessecity.  However I thought my kids would turn me in to the authorities if we ordered pizza "agien".  We did eat mostly take out for the first two weeks unless I put something in the crock pot..which really helped out!  We also had a "movie night" every night for the first week and part of the next.  I feared going out in public just because of the energy it took to do this but once I did get out and got moving ..one foot in front of the other"  I felt good once I accomplished something on my own:)   Once I took my kids for a trip to a state park and we drove with the windows down and the music was blasting~it felt good I felt free!  Hang in there ..things were tough for me physically The fatigue was terrible the diareah I thought was going to kill me..I did not have an appitite for about 2 weeks just the "sick" feeling was terrible...I could handle the physiacl part without a problem  however  the mental part and the emotion part for me was the worst part.  It was what made it hard to continue with my want for the clean lifestyle.  However....Stick with it.  It is soo worth it.

[gnarly_1]

HI how you doing??? ....ive been following your story from the sidelines and just wanted to take a minute to encourage you...your in the beginning of this thing...try to keep a postive attitude it will help out emencley in the next few days...dont let fear into the equation its always worst in our minds then it actually is...remember this is 1/3 physical 2/3 mental
so prepare your self for a fight on both fronts ...I truly believe this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind...YOU CAN DO THIS just keep telling yourself that...what your feeling is only temporary it will go away in a few days...remember hot baths go a long way for a lot of withdrawal symptoms dont under estimate this therapy you may need several a day to get thew this....drink plenty of fluids and try to eat even if your not hungry you need to keep your self up to do this....sleep is usually a problem for most of us so get use to cat naps it is probably all your going to get for the next few days...if you cant sleep try laying on the couch with your eyes closed and some soft music in the background it may be the closest thing to sleep that you get...also get comfortable with the saying...''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile" it will pertain to your condition for the next few days...keep posting for support where all here for you and want to see you succeed good luck and God bless.....Gnarly            

[sad1258]

thank you sooo much!  I am having a very hard time today...so when I get on here and see that someone has taken the time to talk to ME it is sooo wonderful! trying to make it through today...keep prayers coming..one minute I feel like I can't take it anymore and then the next well not so terrible

[gnarly_1]

HI Glad to here your making it...and ya it sorta comes in waves one minute it not so bad the next your close to a panic this is all normal ..you mentioned praying for you...im a man of faith myself and I will pray that Jesus gives you the strength to pull thew this
you may give praying a chance yourself....God was instrumental in helping me break free from my addiction to methadone ....it was a long hard ride but he had my back the whole way....Jesus heres those that cry out his name and he will be there to bring you comfort knowing he is watching over you....he's all you got at 3am...I wish you the best of luck on your journey and you will be in my nightly prayers ........Gnarly  

[want2bme]

Prayers are very needed during this time ..I try not to push the issue due to everybodys differences in faith....He wouldnt give you anything you can not handle!

[sad1258]

gnarly and want2bme...thank you..yes believe me I am praying to God and screaming his name..I believe he has my back or else without him and you guys I could not be doing what I am doing...one whole day done...God just give me the strength to do it again...went to a nearby park today by myself I just could not stay in my house another minute walked for an hour..sweating, praying, and sobing the entire time..sat on a picnic table looking out over the lake and had a good conversation with myself and God...when I got home again I actually felt calm for a short while...and then reality set in again..but I will hang onto those few short minutes of peace...ok that is all for now..you all hang in there too!!!! I don't want to think anymore I am going to rest my mind and hope I am able to sleep...god bless you all...