last day without and scared

[sad1258]

Have been taking Lortab 10 for 4 years.  3 months ago got kicked out of pain clinic...got caught getting them from primary doc and pm..stupid!  I have weened from last rx..have one more left. No one knows what I am going through..have no one to talk too...I am extremely sad, anxious and trying to act normal...will I ever feel like I want to live again?????  Please someone talk to me........

[sad1258]

I did smile Vikki and cried too!!!  I am so glad to have you, my name is Audra..
about to soak in  Epsom Salt and lay this emotionally drained body down and thank God we all made it through another day!!!!!  

[Cantdothisanymore]

Wonderful to hear. so glad we are both still hanging on.

BTW - nice to meet you - my name is Vikki.  (smile)

[sad1258]

thanks yes I made it through 3 more hours...I think I was getting very close to losing it...husband came in and said "where can I take you to dinner"  well...let me just tell you I thought I was going to throw up then and there...I didn't want to go I started crying..didn't know how much more I could take...I said ok got up got my pocketbook, brushed my hair and we went to IHOP...I ended up ordering and eating..not alot..we had great conversation..me crying halfway through the meal looking like an idiot but..I did it...then we went and rode by a house we had lived in 20 years ago...wow wanted to sob don't know if that was a great idea but we were together and laughed and pointed out different shrubs we had remembered planting that long ago when we lived there..then we went by big lots and walked around "he did that for me" I actually felt pretty good with the beast lingering in the background...thanks for listening
..bob--I am that much closer huh?  God keeping me going and you all..wishing everyone a peaceful evening..much love
   cantdothisanymore--thinking of you and hoping your day is going much better than earlier -sunshine-keep on keeping on we all need you!

[gnarly_1]

HI good to see you still hanging in there....I was away with my wife celebrating our 28th anniversary and just got home....so I see your frustrated and got that
''I want it... and I want it now" attitude and as always I have to tell you its going to take a bit more time...something your tired of hearing ....but trust me it does get better as time goes by
if you look back now your already better then you where on day 2 or 3 so you are making progress it just seams painfully slow when your going thew it day by day...try and get your mind off it the best you can...watch a funny movie or go out for a walk and get out of the house for a bit...get lost in some music for a wile and dont get overwhelmed by the simple things...start out with small tasks that take 10min or so and work your way up to bigger things ..the more you do the less your mind will be on how well you dont feel yet..and remember it is different for everyone you might come out of this tonight or it might take a few more days...look at the bright side it could be a lot worst your making great progress now its just not as fast as you would like
it never is...if there was only one thing I wish I could have done was to move the hands of time faster to get it over with sooner but it just don't work that way...now is a great time to get hooked up with some sort of aftercare...it will give you the support you need to keep moving forward with this thing...both N/A and A/A our free and are a great place to meet people that have been down the road b/4 you and also those just starting out...this forum is a great support tool but is not enough by it self you need outside support PLEASE don't skip this critical step in recovery...you will find it helps bound measure...keep posting for support where all out here to help...good luck and God bless......Gnarly        

[jstntime]

We HAVE been where you are.

I can only tell you that it WILL get better.  You just have to trust that it will.  

You obviously don't want to take pills forever.  If you were to go back now you will have to repeat everything you are dealing with at this moment.  Wd only gets worse the longer you use.  NOW is the easiest time you will ever have and it is about to get easier.  Please hang on, you are sooooo close.

Get your mind occupied.  Watch a funny movie, build a puzzle, talk with a friend, play a boardgame with the kids, play cards.......ANYTHING to get you a few more hours closer to feeling better.

You have done an amazing job so far.  Many are watching and praying you get through this.

Keep keeping!!!!!!!

bob

[sunshine1109]

Makeup, getting dressed???? Oh boy that was the last thing I wanted to do and be happy you can shower on your own my husband had to help me I was a "HOT MESS" thats what i called myself...remember I was coming off xanax too oh God it was awful.....but really you should start seeing a change a change for the better in how your feeling, it will happen your getting close to turning that corner.....it would be great if you had someone to talk to is there any NA meetings in your area these people really help...I went to 90 meetings in 90 days I didnt want to but I know it helped me.  I also had some intense counseling, my husband also attended some family therapy groups with me and it helped him to understand exactly what was happening to me and what I was going through...Im just telling what worked for me we are all individuals but maybe try a meeting it will get you out and around people who have been where you are or are going through what you are going through right now...never hurts to try...well try and keep your head up you are well on your way..Sushine