thanks for sticking up for me...it means a lot:)
hey people:
i guess all the drugs i've taken have clean gone and took away my
ability to even figure what's going on arounf here anymore. what is all this **** from saurday about? maybe all the angry and/or hurt posters should go to their rooms for the day...
i posted late yesterday. it was no outstanding, earthbreaker full
of revelation or anything like that...what it was, was one addict
reaching out to others... so what i get? some crptic message, with undercurrents of dissatisfaction. am i misssing some agenda that everyone else has not. if a newcomer came on this board and saw all of the emotional excesses of yesterday, they would have turned tail and run to the first dope they could find...
i guess i'm outa here for awhile...just don't feel like posting to people who are so unstable that one minute your ok, the next you have said or done god knows what. the worst part of all this is i don't recall anyone doing anything to warrent the kind of trearment that the bunch of you seem to need to dispence to each other!
Jess: how did your trip to Minn. go. i have a good friend who's
ex-wife works on some "some super secret unit in center city
where all "the really bad addicts are sent." i od't mean to run
the place down though. someone like you aunt may do very well in
the kinf of enviroment that hazeldon has to offer. anyhow i've
been praying for her (and you and me and all of us!!)i don't know
if i'm going to the cow town 90 miles north up that interstate
that run along the dirty old river or not today. hope your back
home safe, or on the way
hey everyone, keep an angel on your shoulder
(and remember, we need each other...hell you people are all i've
got!!)
kip
Groovy- if you like you can e-mail me at ***@****, I could send you a couple of links I know about, one for chronic pain, one to help you find an addcition medicine specialist in your area.
Hippy- I am not sure what you mean by healthy hostility. That was apparently directed at all of us and I found it to be quite hurtful, hey maybe I'm oversensitive, wouldn't be the first time I was found to be that but that remark hurt.
I am appalled at the level of negativity here, so I'll be backing way off for some time now and keeping my thoughts to myself.
IR
jesse - thanks so much for saying that. i've counted on this forum for a long time, and now i feel unwelcome. i was up at 2 a.m. reading my posts and trying to figure out what i have done wrong. altho i keep in touch with some of the old members via email, i miss their posts here so much. i guess times change, and now i will just try to think about all the good i once found here.
seamstress - thanks - i have been to addiction specialists, etc. i realize the liability problem, which i mentioned in my first post on this subject. i just thought someone might know about someone that i didn't. anyway - thanks for posting to me in a way that didn't make me feel like jumping in front of a bus...hahah.
happy mother's day to all those great mothers out there. to all those mothers of another variety (mother$%#@s), even tho you made me feel like hell, i still wish you well in your recovery.
GG, I don't think you're going to find a doctor on the internet who will give professional advice re addiction. As has been pointed out, there is a liability involved in dispensing advice to someone you can't properly assess. Anyone on the internet can say anything they want about their condition. The information may or may not be true. Addicts have a propensity to minimize their usage and misrepresent other areas of their life.
You may be better served by trying to find an addiction specialist. It is not easy. It took me days and days of phone calls to find a competent psychiatrist, which incidentally is where I would begin the search. Most are specialists in that field.
Good luck.
You have done NOTHING to deserve all the hostility you got Saturday Night.. Those of weaker character and minds needed someone to cut down and tear apart to make themselves seem stronger in the midst of thier own weakness. Give yourself a pat on the back; You've helped some of the weak-minded feel better about themselves if just for a few moments....