So I am bored and figured I'd let you all know what's been up.

[happynessbythekilowatt]

So I am bored and can't sleep as usual. Been staying off the painkillers. I've made a choice to join the Army and get away because this vicious cycle seems to always get the best of me. That and the military is something I have been wanting to do but couldn't manage to stay clean long enough to pass a drug test. How are you all doing?

[happynessbythekilowatt]

Well I have been clean since summer(from painkillers), I remember talking to you throughout last fall and winter, my other name got banned =\. But this is a decision I have thought about hard for 4 years. It is something I have wanted to do but my parents talked me into sticking around and trying school and working first before I went and did that (which I did great for a couple of years then it all went to hell because of pills) , and I do know what I am in for, for I have family and friends over seas. I have relapsed a few times, and even if I say, get drunk, or smoke a joint, I feel like I am letting myself down even though those weren't my demons. So I just stay sober and die of boredom everyday. Lol. I have had trouble sleeping since I was about 13 so that's why I am up. If I do stay around here I will fall back into the cycle though, if I get away for a while, i can get used to living a new life style without temptation being in my face.

[worried878]

not sure i have spoken with u before..but it sounds like u have a plan...sumpin u wanna do plus it works as far as removing urself from any toxic peeps in ur life...a getawy..just hope it is not a getaway that sends u overseas/listened the other night and it seems obama has renigged on his promise to get the country out of Iraq and is sending 30,000 more troops instead/i do believe if we r gonna fight a war then go in and get it over with tho//but promising voters one thing and doing another aint talways coture tho/course many of those who voted for him will never even realize this happened anyway so he is probably safe for re-election....course u know all of this and the chances of going overseas, so it is good there r guys who r willing to help us...and go serve the country

Thing is, do not make hasty decisions til u know u r on clear ground clean wise..how long have u been clean?  still not sleeping makes me think maybe only a short time....but i have been clean almost 2 yrs and I am up too...so what gives?  LOL