my mind is playing games

[tek891]

hi everyone i have been off norcos for almost two weeks now. i was taking about 5 aday for a few months. im sitting around today with nothing to do and all i can think about is 1 or 2 is fine. if i only do it today and only today i wont go back. its really dragging me down. ill almost get to the point of grabbing 1 or 2 and stop myself. any suggestions?

[cathy5841]

tek, i am sorry it was someone else that took them in the middle of the night...glad you dont have access to any.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Have to agree that it may take quite a while sometimes - but it is ultimately so worth it...... you will learn how to redirect the feelings you get - really ---- good luck now -

[tek891]

yah thats pretty much what its doing. well im gonna get out so thanks again for talking....

im sure ill be back soon.

[owhatamistake]

Let me clarify....they don't really end, end, but they totally become MUCH fewer and far between and easily manageable as opposed to now when they are ripping your soul out.

[tek891]

i didnt take ant in the night that was a different poster.

[owhatamistake]

The mind games DO end!  However, they can jump in at the weirdest times....BUT....you will not be as affected by them after you have a year or so under your belt.  How do you think I stayed clean for 18 years? LOL  I didn't think there was anything that could get me to relapse, but my mom's death did the trick.  Once I get clean, I plan to stay clean THIS TIME.  I'll be doing a lot of aftercare because I found it next to impossible to stay clean without it.  Maybe you could try a little of that.  The very best of luck to you!

[cathy5841]

tek, if you dont have any in the house and dont know where to get them, how did you take them in the middle of the night???  whatamistake is right, dont lose the time you have.  BE STRONG.

[tek891]

thanks.....yes i do remember you were one of the first i talked to, and truely u have helped me a ton. wow ur almost there thats great......that takes alot of dedication to stick to the taper, and more self control..im certain ur outcome will be nothing less than great.....thank you again.

[owhatamistake]

Hey!  It's good to see you've almost 2 weeks of clean time!  I'm almost there.....down to 2 a day.  I am hoping to jump off during the week.....I'm terrified, but I'm going to do it!

Get out of the house!.... even if it's to take a car ride!  Get rid of the pills!....that's what I plan to do if I have any left at the end of my taper!  My God...you have done SO GOOD!  We started this at about the same time, if you remember and I would totally LOVE to be in your place right now!  Please...please...please don't loose what you have!

[tek891]

thanks for the comments, i dont have any at my house, hell, i dont even know were i would get em. thanks alot for the help... do these mind games ever end?

[corey411]

This happens to all of us. You have to be stronger than this voice in your head. As Cathy said get rid of the pills!!! I have relapsed soo many times just bc the pills were available. I did not even have them at my house. That voice can overpower you. Try to do something different to take your mind off pills. Did you read the health pages, how to intervene on a craving. It helped me. Congrats on making it almost 2 weeks. It's all head games now. You can win. Good for you for posting before you acted. Please get rid of those pills. GBU, Corey

[worried878]

again...cathy has a good point!  LOL  COL.....why do people keep the pills after they quit?  it makes it so hard to quit..if u have them in ur cabinet then it is no wonder u want one of them...unless u r superman or superwoman, why would u put urself thru this/trying to quit with pills available to u..includes refills waiting..friends next door with pills...cutting off supply is important...any easily available supply needs to go...and keeping them in ur house is pure torture..i would rather go outside and beat myself over the head with a baseball bat!

[cathy5841]

my first suggestion is get rid of the pills.  flush them.  as long as you have them in the house the mind can trick you into taking them...one or two turns into more and more.  second, get out and do something...anything....if it is nice out go for a walk...clears the head if its not go to the mall or anything.....you dont need the pills....good luck