Do not ever feel hopeless..keep posting here and let us know more about what is going on??? lots of support here
Hi, sorry your feeling so hopeless. Been there. How bad do you want recovery? Are you willing to put it first in your life? Missing your appointments is not a good thing. Your recovery needs to begin with you. Sometimes as addicts we think recovery is just about stopping our drug of choice. It's so much more. We need to be accountable and responsible for making a plan and sticking to it. Have you tried NA? They will not turn you away and it's free and it's everywhere. I don't mean to sound harsh but these are things that I have been through....I tried things half heartedly and always the same result...RELAPSE. If you really want this you have to do the footwork. You need to be around recovering addicts and you need to ask them for help. This recovery is tough but so worth it. You have to fight harder and stick with it. Please don't give up. Find a meeting and go to it tomorrow. Once you get clean and honest with yourself things just start to fall into place. Good luck to you. Keep posting and get all of the help that is available for you. GBU, Corey
What kind of help are you looking for? Inpatient treatment? Outpatient?