I spoke with you yesterday about going to a meeting. Just one. I gave you the link to find one near you. You want some self worth? We can try and do that here for you hun but nothing replaces that one on one hug you will get at a meeting and sitting with a group of people you just met and finding out that they know EXACTLY what you are feeling and going through. My fear for you is that you won't hang on unless you do something right now. I can see you slipping and it hurts me to see you like this. It does not have to be this way. Please, please get help.
I wonder why those people at the party could not read my face. Like those charts in the hospital. Number one is happy and great and number ten is terrible and in pain. Lol im pretty sure I looked like I wanted to just melt away. If u guys see some one else who feels like me may b you could help them feel better. Its not anyone s job but some people need it.
Thank you! Please also pray that I can get some self worth of some kind
You are in my prayers too sweetie. Be good to yourself tonight.
Thank you so much I really really need the prayers!
I will remember you in my prayers soon as I finish this post cliner. you are doing great! your still clean!!! wow girl parties are hard even on years of recovery! take it easy on yourself. what a story you have my heart goes out to you I am so sorry. it will take time to feel good about yourself. but you can start now! you are doing this! what a wonderful thing! you are giving this gift to yourself and taking care of you. that is great! that makes you a helluva lot taller than all those people at the party stacked one on top of the other in my eyes! :)