Keep your head up, the guilt part is tough, that's something I struggle with the most too. I actually don't have any health insurance either and would love to get counseling as I go through this process but can't, so I'm trying to use other supports as best I can. For what it's worth, I've only been on this forum a week but it's been great, people are so supportive here.
Way overly emotional I guess. I started crying when I read YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE I was ready for everyone to bash me. Thank you. I am googling those NA meeting s now. The withdrawal s don't seem as bad but I don't remember it being bad until day two. I really hope some how it won't be as bad because i honestly don't know how I will explain this. Last time a couple weeks ago I said I was sick.
Hi welcome to the forum glad you found us your detox shouldent be as bad but your going to still feel it my bigest consirn is your relapse you lucky you dident O/D our tolerance goes way down after you detox that was a lot of pills in a short time for me as well as most our members with a yr or more clean we use aftercare consoling helps but it cost money churches do it for free for me I tryed both but it wasent till I hit the rooms of N/A that I was able to arrest my disease and find recovery the best part of it is its free you will be able to share what your going threw with people that understand it you wont get that ''deer in the head light stare '' that the normies give you once your there a wile you can pick up a sponcer and work the steps that will give you structure and help you face the train reck of living in active addiction I cannot over efasize who important this is so google a meeting near you keep posting for support we dont shoot our wounded your not a failure your a addict time to do something about it...........Gnarly