nightmare

[islandgalveston]

hello,iam new to this and iam so happy to have came across all the info. ive been on narco 10 for two yrs. going to several doctor just to get my pep .i have a 2yr old and a 1 yrs old ,and to all the mothers out there knows its hell keeping up with them. right??? its like the buzz is great for a couple of hours then it all falls apart.how ever i am trying to beat those deamons, the drug deamons!!! well now my doctor cut me off! i wanted to jump across his desk and knock the hell out of him. i just stood there looking at my doc. with my mouth open, thinking what the hell did you just tell me!! cut off ????i had no choice.but go cold turkey,and oh my god!!! it was hell!!!! for 2 -3 days of just sweeting ,no mottvation.my birthday was fri, and all i could do was sit. on the couch life less.my husband didt have a clue,but deep down inside i felt like ****, i want so badly to find some vic,narce,codine something,anything!!!i i could't take withdraws no more,after day 3 going on day 4 today 7-28-08  iam stating to feel some what normal. i am scard to go through what i am fighting now,but can i remiain clean is the question?

[islandgalveston]

thanks for addvice, well, it with 1 then 2 then 3 and so on and so on. i was up to 12 or more a day.sick right??? well to make a long story short i just got a rifill and i'am so tempted to go get it how ever i'am scarde as ****. i fell like if climb a mounton. and if i take that 1 lil pill. here i go again! you know. hydo1205 do you know the hell i went thourgh for 4 days. damn!! i am almost temped but i just stay busy,to cut the edge off.

[hydro1205]

Hello and welcome to the forum.  There will be many people here that will help you.  You must make a commitment to remain clean.  Try to post on here as much as possible and finding NA/AA meetings in your area helps too.  Your getting clean will help your children too and they can also be an inspiration for you.  I was taking hydrocodone for two years and am 14 days clean today.  You are almost through the physical withdrawals at day 4 and I am sure you do not want to do it again.  Give more information about how much you were taking per day and more people will be on here to give answers to your questions.  Stay strong and congrats!!!