got my life back in the matter of a month

[evildone]

Well I started this thig alil over a month ago. I started to feel better every day after 7 days but on day 18 I got the flu and to be honest, that sucked more than the w\d's from 65 mg of methadone. The worst part was no sleep and restless legs. But I have to tell you man oh man did it get better. I'm 38 days clean and I feel like the world was lifted off my back. I can't tell you how great I feel right now. I wanted to tell you all this because I know what ur going through and let me tell you if really want off this **** you can do it. I can't say it enough. Vitamins are really helping. They move you through w\d's faster and they help ur body heal. I also wanna say that I used this website because everyone here really cares. We all know what its really like. I really don't know what I'm trying to say. I guess I just want everyone here to feel lie I do right now. I wanna also thank everyone that reads my posts and replies. I feel like this is my second family and even though I'm clean and don't even think about pillz, I still want to write to you. I just can't leave you all because a lot of you helped me change my life. I really hope everyone gets what they want in life. Because I know once you are off this you will want more in life. Now we all know what a messed up life is like. But I promise you if you stay right and keep thinking positive,you will reap the rewards. I look at life better now. And its a great feeling. Thanks and much love to everyone. I willpost as much as I can. Your life is worth the 2 weeks of being sick. Trust me! Everyone deserves this. Peace

[katie252]

i am trying to do what you did, have bene on methadone for over ten years and i am sick to death with the whole cycle and really desperately want my life back, the trouble is i reduce slowly (I am alsoon 65 like you were) and do well for a few days but then go back to full amount, its like my tank can run on rediucing but suddenyl it feels like its on empty (this happens after four days even after reducing 2mls, when i do another2mls thats when i hit an empty tank) its like suddenyl i feel like i cant run anymore as i have an ampty tank and i have to put some more petrol in. for a while i am so happy its like- great i can run on less petrol that i am used to i am going to be able to get the the bit where i dont need any petrol at all whcih would be fabulous and then i go and scupper it all when i find my tank is empty and then just sit there consumed totally with how i feel- knowing id feel better if i wetn up to my full amount- which amounts to a life long addction- to admitting to being on it for life and i dont want this- i want my life back, i want to feel like you did when you said you feellike it was liftenfrom your shoulders, TELL ME HOW YOU DID IT I am feeling this reducing by 2 mls tapering doesnt work because it works until it hits you and then you just as well do it in a rapid way if you try, fail, try and fail so how did youdo it? cold turkey?i was thinking of cutting by hallf then helf again and then half again OR taking two days without anything at all- or going for as long as i can without it-just get me down to the next step to get me down a five ml or ten ml jump- its not pleasant but at least it will get me down- how did you doit? and how did you feel like? not sleeping doesnt bother me its the mental side of it- its the coping- i dont want to sit there struggling because a lifelong addction seems better than that. i dont know what to do- i do know i am not happy being like this and want to change but dont want a year long taper of 2 mls a week and not sleeping, this 2mls taper thing is suposed to be painless- it so isnt.

[Allicat0117]

I really needed to hear that stuff ... It lifted me up. Congratulations!

[worried878]

seems like wd takes a toll on the immune system,,seems as tho i caught bug after bug in the months after detox...C helps/tons of it...and congrats on ur clean time!

[dominosarah]

Nice post........stay positive.         sara