Brother, I just came off of a 2 year addiction to the same stuff you're sniffing. I started out exactly like you, using only on the weekends for the work week finisher. Opiates CANNOT be used over any period of time for pleasure and stay on your current schedule. They will eventually turn your cravings into reality and before you know it you're using at work. Maybe only a little bit but it doesn't matter. Once you add another dose somewhere in your schedule another will shortly follow and then another and another and so on and forth until it becomes every day, all day. It will get to a point where you won't even be able to start your morning routine (i.e. making that coffee, teeth brushing etc.) without dosing and waiting the whole time you're completing these daily tasks for the med to kick in. This may take some time. It took me about 8 months for this to happen and the sad thing is you don't even realize it. You realize that you're dosing so much when you're, "oh ****, I'm not gonna make it through the day cause I'm about to run out. At this point you will do almost anything to not let this happen, call in on an important day, w/d at work and look like an idiot or many other things. The pain and suffering caused by opiates really can't be explained to someone that hasn't experienced it, but one can take our experiences and with a little common sense walk away from it. It's worth it to YOU and anyone you love to walk away from this EVIL. It WILL destroy you and there is no harder thing to accept than looking in a mirror and seeing a person you once knew, and know that you don't know that person anymore. That person is you. Walk away man. It will be one of the most powerful decisions you will ever make. Take the path or not, it's your choice, just know that here is one place you can come for absolute, brutal honesty and care. We are all here for the same reasons and we are all different. Some of us doctors, lawyers, ceo's. Some of us college students and grad students. Some of us lost puppies in a jungle deep, but we are all connected to the power and destruction of opiates. Make your choices wisely my friend and just know that we will all be here if you choose our chosen paths.
I think 10356 and worried said it all.You're story sounds familiar to many of us.You're starting out where most of us did,don't end up like us.You don't want to lose what we did,have the regrets that we have.Stop now before you go any further down that road.You've come to a wonderful place for help and support,keep posting.......Kim
u should be proud to realize a potential problem..as this couod turn into a daily thing before u know it..i started that way..weekend user..then a few here and there during the day at work as i thought i performed better..before u know it u use to get up each morning, to start ur car, to get out of ur car..to walk into the store, to walk out of the store..u get my drift..catch it now while ui can still get out of this without losing everything u hold dear to ur self..including urslef...never lose urself and drug r not worth it...they will take everything of value away from u in the end..and leave u stranded on the side of the road with nothing but a broken person..dont let it go there...altho many of these pieck themselves up and get clean...dont go to that extent to find u need help....get out while the getting is good..keep posting
Hi itiswhatitis69 welcome to the forum.. the weekend warrior thing will eventually catch up to you.. glad to see your posting now.. First you have to make a conscious decision to quit... Then check into AA meeting or NA meeting on weekends instead of using.. change up your routine.. stick around and read the forum.. it might give you more motivation to quit while you are ahead.. I wish you well.. lesa
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