running out of pills-------SCARED!!!!!!!!!

[lisa983]

scared to death right now... well some of you know that I am going to quit hydros after december, because i will have three months off. after october 31st, im off work till thanksgiving, money low so my pill supply is getting smaller everyday, and now im starting to panic... im not sure if i have enough to taper. its just my mind is crazy right now , im worried that im going to run out. what should i do... i can't think straight right now.. any advise.. plz don't be mean anyone i really can't handle it today.. good advise would be very helpful....

[heather_r]

Good for you! You are lucky your husband is supportive. When I stopped Hydors I went into W/D in about 6 hours so if you dont have any yet than that is great. I took 7-9 10mg a day. Be proud of yourself for stopping and giving the pills to your husband that is a huge step.

[lisa983]

this morning i woke up, i feel better, after i posted yesterday i did not take any pills, when my husband got home i gave him the rest of the pills i had, i was crying and told him to get rid of them, i have to say it made me feel so good, when he gave me a big hug, and said not to worry he is here for me and very proud.  but before i posted yesterday i was thinking of how to get more, but you guys changed my mind.. i guess this is the first step right. its werid sitting here with no pills to take, i can say i am ready for this. so i will probley be leaning on you guys a lot for support. thank you so much for your input...so far no w/d's. when should i expect them to hit hard?
GOD BLESS..

love, lisa

[worried878]

45 mg a day is 9 4 mg pills...not really much...may be easier to flushem and cold turkey it...this is the time to do it and 3 weeks is more than enuf time for that habit...i went back to work day 5 from a 100 mg habit..u r lucky to have this time off...think positive and use what is handed to u to help...2-3 weeks off to quit is a luxury most do not have..stock up on the aminos..exercsie daily...flush ur pills left over..and get started on it..of taper til u r out and then it may be close to time to go back to work and u may freak....now u have so much time to work with...lots of support here...but u have to believe in urself first...think of the reasons why u CAN do this and not all the resons why u CAN NOT

[fiveyears]

I keep my Norco for a legitimate script for broken spine and seperated shoulders in a combo locked case and my wife hands them out to me daily.  There have been times when I used up scripts too soon and it is terrifying.  If you do decide to taper and have that option, I suggest you do the math and have someone control them for you...counting them if necessary.  You may think the withdrawl from tapering is bad but it is NOTHING compared to going full strength usage into cold-turkey.  

That being said, sometimes having no way to get it is the only way to do it.  Rational thinking almost never prevails in that situation.  I wish you the very best..

[heather_r]

I know what you are facing is a horrible thought, but you can do it. You have lots of support here and the W/D will go away. I wish I would have found this site when I was W/D but it helps me now on not going back to the pills. Counting pills is a endless cycle so be strong and break it. Best of luck.

[troubleinohio]

you can do this. I would honestly just try to go CT instead of prolonging things by tapering. All youre doing is dragging out the DREAD and PANIC of running out of your pills, and delaying the WD process. Youre gonna WD sooner or later no matter what, so why not get started asap and get it over with? I know alot of people think tapering is better but Im one of the few that think CT is best..  btw how old is your baby now? do you have more than one child? use them as your motivation and strength to quit. It can be very powerful. I remember one of the times I was detoxing off vics and almost slipped up and tried to get more pills. I even drove to the guys house but ended up making myself drive past it instead. I parked in a lot down the road from his house and just started crying and sobbing. I was shaking and so upset and in so much pain and kept thinking how just a few vics would make it all better for a little while. But then i made myself think of my little boys at home - what kind of mother was I?? out trying to score drugs while they were at home innocent as can be. I made myself turn my car around and go straight back home and kept going past the guys house who had the pills. It was a defining moment in my recovery being able to do that...
good luck to you and I hope you try your hardest to quit!