scared straight

[jess538]

Since I've discovered this website I have realized just how dangerous cocaine is. I always knew in the back of my head it was bad but I never knew just how bad it is. To actually talk to people who have overdosed and have had heart attacks is a real wake up call. I can honestly say I will never touch it again. I value my life way too much to just throw it away. I'm just glad I'm stopping now before it's too late.

[brokenheart69]

Thank you, I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I just think if there was something I could have done to save him or keep him from going next door. I feel that I let him down because I wasn't there when he really needed me. He had always been here for me. I know I couldn't have known this was going to happen. He always told me he had to much going for him now to go back to that. His family was trusting him again and he had things he didn't have when he was on crack. I guess if he hadn't died the way he did I could maybe handle it a little better. i know deep in my heart he never wanted to go back to that life because he fought so hard to stay clean as long as he did and he truely loved me.

[Dav125]

Sorry to hear of all this happening to you. Coke is bad stuff. Some people don't get past their first time use alive.

If I may, I'd like to suggest one thing to you. You say your spending alot of time researching crack and its effects. Thats understandable as whenever something bad happens in our live's, we try to find an answer to the "why' of  it all..With crack there is not much to learn. Other than, its bad stuff and especially hard on people's hearts.In more than one way..I'm having a difficult time trying to find the right way to word this so I'll kinda go straight to the point. In my eyes, you might want to let go of the research. I know its your way of trying to process this, but sometimes we get so caught up in it that we can't heal..

Again,,I'm truly sorry to hear of your loss... I suffered a similar loss last year losing the mother of my children with crack being a big player in it. Then got caught up in the "why" feelings myself. I finally turned it over to the Serenity Prayer as I was burning myself out trying to find an answer that just wasn't there.

[brokenheart69]

Cocain is a killer. My b/f had been clean for just over 5 yrs until Sept.19. he relapsed for the first time. In the early morning hours of Sept.20th he died of a massive heart attack in our bathroom floor. He had went to the ER a few hours before with his blood pressure 200/100. They sent him home after getting it down. When we got home he was throwing up and said he didn't feel good. We didn't know he was having a heart attack. Didn't even know throwing up was a symptom. I loved my b/f very much now I feel like a part of me died with him. For you and your families sake fight that demon with every thing you have in you. He had fought so hard to stay off that stuff. But our next door neighbor, his so-called friend knew he was a recovering crack addict was on his porch smoking when my b/f went over there and he made a very bad decison because he had been drinking that night. My b/f told me he was ashamed he let it happen. That night at the ER I had told him I didn't want to lose him and about an hour after we got home he died. We didn't even know the man smoked it. He's a sixty yr old lowlife who just used and took advantage of my b/f's good heartedness. He always tried to help people. My b/f was only 42. He died 5 yrs to the day they buried his brother. The pain of my b/f's death is so unbearable, i can't hardley function from day to day. i go on the internet just to research anything I can find on crack and the effect it can have on people. My life will never be the same again. My daughter has lost 2 dads before she is 6 yrs old. Her real dad died when she was 2 from health problems and i met my b/f 7 mths later and he stepped in to be a dad to her and now he's gone from her little life.

[ang_811]

glad u found this site and r now scared straight...im alawys grateful for evrey day that i can wake up and live life again.. i know just how close i was to death. ive used cocaine plenty of times while i was using pills and can always remember how i felt when i was on coke and can remember how much it messed with my heart..im very lucky to b here today and im so happy that ur not gonna contnue down this road. its not a fun road to go down. good luck to ya..

[sky_is_the_limit]

A very wise decision. I have had many friends die from cocaine overdose. This can be one of the hardest drugs to quit. Take a look at the pic that I have posted for my profile. For me this represents the demons inside of me trying to get out. That is something that we can face together. Keep posting because we are all here for you. Support is one of the keys to a successful conclusion to your cocaine addiction. (And My Pill Addiction) Good luck my friend!

                                                                  sky_is_the_limit

[Dav125]

I'm amazed I'm still alive..Your making a very wise choice. The only path that stuff follows is one of death and destruction...