should i just cold turkey now?

[Mandapanda17]

i'm lost. I think I may just want to do it tomorrow. I already feel like I'm done, and honestly I feel pretty bad already. I know it'll get worse if I cold turkey. I have sat and sun and mon off and then I work tues wed thurs and then I have 10 days off after that. am I crazy for thinking I could be able to go to work on days 4,5,6??? I just don't want to live like this anymore. I've taken 6 norcos today. 60 mgs of hydro.. do you think I should just do it?! My plan was to go cold turkey on august 24th, but this anticipation is killing me!!! talk to you all soon and thanks for listening.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Go for it! You can do this. Everyone is different, some have worked after a few days w/d. Worst case is you will need those 3 extra days off, but then after the next 10 day that you have off. You can get your life back.

[Mandapanda17]

I'm seriously considering this.. my friend is here visiting from LA, and I may have to go out tomorrow night to dinner.. but from what I remember in the past day 1 usually isn't the worst for me. I somewhat functioned when I went CT last year. I was clean for 70 days last year, july and august and then I had to have surgery on my shoulder again. I just want this so much, and I think if I can be in the right place mentally, I can do it again, and for good this time. :) I only work 6 hour shifts those three days..from 430am-10-30am, and I know I probably won't be able to sleep during those times anyway. thanks for your input, oh and I've been taking norcos for almost 4 years, finally now down to 50-60mg a day from 150mg+ a day for some of the time up until the last month. ttys!

[GoingToMakeIt]

I do believe that you can do this! Go for it! Get your life back! Don't feel bad that after 70 days clean you used again. Surgery is rough, you did good. Now is the time to do it. With that 10 day window ahead, it is a perfect time for this. Stay in touch and PM me if you need anything.

[enemy48]

Humph....tough call.  You will need the 10 days.  If you have enough to stretch it out, you may be better off.  If you haven't ever completely detoxed before, then you have no idea how hard the 3 days of work will be.

I'm not doing my math well, trying to figure the 3 days into your detox days.  What would they be?  I'm thinking they would be the peak of the detox.

[Mandapanda17]

GTMI, I think I may be able to do this...i'll definitely keep you posted :)

enemy48, the work days would be days 4,5 and 6. and I was clean last year for 70 days. I also had gone cold turkey before a few times during that 4 years, just not in the last year. I know how it is, sort of because I know for me every time has been different as far as how severe my symptoms are. I actually felt better after the third day a couple times after cold turkey. what do you think?

[GoingToMakeIt]

Each person's w/d is different. If push comes to shove, can you be sick those days?
You know your limits and situation. We stand behind you, whichever way you decide.

[Mandapanda17]

thanks so much :) I probably couldn't call in sick... mayBE one of the days, but not all 3. At my job you have to have your shift covered by someone else to have the day off. And I'm thinking someone would probably work for me one of the days, but not all three. It is only 18 hours combined... thanks again and if it doesn't happen now, its august 24th NO MATTER WHAT. :)

[cathy5841]

hi just wanted to chime in and tell you i worked everyday of my detox...i was on wayyyy more oxy that that and was a snorter.  now, mind you i am not saying it was easy, but i did do it.   i made my mind up to quit and i didnt have any days off,,lol.  you can do this, if you really want it bad enough.  and have you thought of any aftercare...you relapsed after 70 days, maybe because you didnt have the tools to stay clean...getiing clean really is the easy part...its the living clean that takes work....good luck

[eringobragh]

2moro will be day 1 for me...lets do it together!!!

[joangy]

I know how you feel... the anticipation becomes like a giant elephant on your back! I ended up flushing my last pills 4 days earlier than my "stop date" and called in one day.  I had to call in on day 2 of w/d.

Day 4 I started feeling really good, but the pain kicked in on day 5! If you only have to work 6 hr shifts you can totally do it!!! It's all about motivation! If you are motivated- you can and will do it!!

BTW: Cathy is soo right, living clean takes the work- I am struggling big time with that!!

I think you and eringobragh should get clean tomorrow! Keep us posted.

[joann1975]

I know you can BOTH do this! Great decisions on getting your life back...

Manda from our talks I KNOW your ATTITUDE IS GREAT! Go for it and be done with it!!!

Erin..you can do this too....life is so much better clean...it's hard to get there but doable!

Now, I am a fan of the Amino Acid Protocols...so I vote you go to GNC and get the stuff. If you can't get it all I really vote for the B12 (liquid/sublingual under tongue) the Ester C (buffered vitamin C more expensive but worth it) calcium & magnesium & melatonin at bed time!!! ANYONE ELSE AM I FORGETTING IMPORTANT ONES TO GET IF $$ IS A PROBLEM?

I also took in higher doses (tapered back from them now) Milk Thistle, Flax Seed Oil.. some I couldn't take due to being on anxiety meds and anti depressants...so if you aren't on any...check those out!

I won't be around til tomorrow evening but please I want to hear an update!!! From BOTH of you!!! You can do this!!!

JoAnn

[Mandapanda17]

cathy- I may seek aftercare this time, I had to have surgery on my shoulder after I was clean for the 70 days last year so thats what caused the relapse. this time I'm praying there won't be any setbacks! good to know you worked too, and survived? :) Gives me hope. thanks you!

erin-we should do this together..not fun!! what were you taking and how much, for how long? ttys!

[Mandapanda17]

thank you both!!! I am motivated and really am ready to do this. I don't even think I can wait for my quit date. I'm going to try and do this... hopefully i'll be ok to work on tues, wed, and thurs. but I guess I'll have to force myself too, and I have 10 days off to look forward too after that :) I am going to try to go to GNC tomorrow, or have my fiance go if I can't and at least get the stuff on the list joann, at least the most important parts of it. I will for sure keep you both posted :)

[10356]

I wish you well manda you have the drive and determination to do this :))

eringobargh  I also wish you well.. Remember a lot of hot baths and walking or what ever you can do too stay busy, it helps pass the time and keeps your mind occupied.. You can do this and post it will help  lesa

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[Mandapanda17]

hi, I'm 18 hours clean so far... don't know what to expect. I've done this before, but I'm just confused why I'm not sicker yet? guess I should try to not think about it. no dwelling.. thanks for all your help!!! Oh, I don't have a bathtub, which is crappy, but I do have a shower, and I can walk :) I did the dishes and vacuumed the carpet this morning. amazing! :)

[10356]

Hi Manda I'm so glad you decided to jump.. Most do :)) The fist day is not so bad you might have a problem sleeping day 2 and 3 are a bit rougher... Hopefully you will be one of those that slide right through.. I hope so. If not you know we are here for you.. Hot showers work well also :)) lesa

[extrmeski]

WOW!! good for you!  It's a hard scarey decision but I found that tapering to me was just prolonging what you will have to face anyway.  Just get it over with.  I also read somewhere if you put a bar of soap under your fitted sheet in your bed it helps with the restless legs??  Never tried it but ppl swear it works!  Good luck!

[Mandapanda17]

hey guys,

I'm at hour 22 now. The runs just started, I'm surprised it took so long? this is very strange because I'm still kind of ok otherwise. I know hours 24-72 aren't much fun sometimes but I'm just going to keep my head right and I'll get through this. thats weird about the soap extremeski?! huh, I guess if it gets too bad I'll have to try that. I think my xanax is helping me a bit so far, but who knows. I think I actually fell asleep for an hour and 1/2 before I got on here again. go me! :) wondering what the heck to do tonight, i'm supposed to go out with my friend from so-cal...may be cancelling that excursion. for now I'm just going hour by hour. :)

[GoingToMakeIt]

Thanks for posting your updates. You can do this. Eat lots of bananas and drink lots of water. Get this over with. You are on your way now. Keep us posted.

[worried878]

i detoxed off 80 mg a day of hydros...that is about what u r down to...it is not tha bad...i was so afraid but when u r mentally ready it is just not that bad...and u r i think...no one can make this decison for u but 18 hours and doing ok...girl go for it...if u r a bit sluggish at work tell em u r sick....maybe it is the time...an exciting time..i do wish u the best and u r one of those i can tell ...u r gonna make it!   keep posting and wee will help u make it thru...pm me anytime...working and detox is an extra challenge but we can make it...and u will..i feel it in my bones!

[Mandapanda17]

I'm still doing okeeey. The RLS is BAD...laid there for 3 hours and my effin legs won't stop moving. gotta go get some bananas. its 1am...so probably tomorrow. Otherwise I'm still doing ok. thanks for all you support!!!! I know I can do this. :) I actually laughed today and it felt real... certain things are already getting better for me :) I'm at 30 hours and pretty happy about it. go me!!! thanks again you guys, I don't know if I could've done this without your support.

[gizzy32]

what happened to the August 24 th quit date, lol. good for you on doing this. i guess you were eager to quit huh, i love it. hang in there this will be over soon. congrats on taking the big step, good luck.

[SANDIANZ]

i am day one cold turkey off of oxys, snorting, and together we can do it.  I don't have to go back to work til sept 2 so i definately have the time/  my husband is 100% helpng so that helps.  a friend got me a few suboxuns but i don't know;  where i have the time. i may as well just do it too.   GOOD LUCK AND KEEP IN TOUCH.  SANDIANZ

[joann1975]

manda...I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!! you made an awesome decision to jump off!

keep posting and let us know how you are doing... i think your attitude and your DESIRE to be clean will help tremendously!

(i've heard the bar of soap thing too...heard it works but never tried it!)

You are doing great!
JoAnn