so tired of it, im checking in to treatment

[wannabfre2b]

Hi everyone, you all know me, probably from the Brother Frankie dispute, but, i have decided tonite, i can not quit on my own, i have tried and tried, to no avail.  There is a treatment center that want to get me in, have you guys heard of it, its called The Treatment Center, they are in Florida, i have already talked to counselors, they will not let me suffer, they will help me through this, and if one thing, i have put up with my husbands abuse enough, and have tried and tried again to quit taking pills, this is the only way out, i HAVE to get away and get clean, away from all these surroundings. I know i t will be hard coming back, but i just want to be able to get clean, i \CANT do it on my own, i have insurance, so im going, please post and let me know this is the right thing to do.....im soooooo scared, but ready,  thanks.

[ClaudiaKishi]

This too shall pass..You will be happy and strong again..It takes a LOT of balls to do what you are doing. You will make it.

[wannabfre2b]

Posting to everyone, thought id give you an update, going to Florida to Treatment, not an option, to far away from home, so Im checking into facilities in my state.  My hands are shaking as im posting, i am sooo scared.  But buddy, i am so sick of being sick, having to take a pill to feel better, or slamming a beer, or pot, you name it whatever i can get my hands on.  It has spiraled so much in the last few weeks, and if i dont get some help, i wont be around, life is good, i want to be happy again.  As i said, i have tried over and over to quit on my own, i need some guidance, i just dont want to go to one of those places and just get locked up like a prisoner, i would go off the deep end.  Im praying for Him to show me the right place, i have already called my insurance, they pay for 80% for substance abuse treatment.  I have hit rock bottom guys, suicide is not an option, its get real and find myself again.  This desease is to consuming, i feel like its taken everything from me, and gives nothing back.  Please pray for me to find the right place to go to, within a week i will be checking in...I love this forum and all of you........you guys rock...

[eyeofhorus2010]

I'm on your side too. Whatever it takes to get clean is the right decision. You'll be a better person for having done it. When you get out be sure to come back here and let us share in your success. Good luck.

[ClaudiaKishi]

Wow! You are very brave and you can totally beat this! I looked into Rehab centers myself but chickened out. My mother discouraged it too, I suppose she is pretty overprotective..But I really admire you..You are going to beat it!!

[Htownnofrown]

Treatment saved my life and it can do the same for you! Good for you for making one of the hardest but one of the best decisions there is!

[vicki595]

This is a great(and hard)decision. Good for you. Don't be afraid...I think it's just perfect.
Stay in touch here and keep posting until you leave.