being tested

[MomOfTheseBoys]

Get a phone msg this am. from pharmacy, time for refills!!!  UGH   the temptation is SOO strong :(  

[MomOfTheseBoys]

Thanks for the kind words.  I cannot tell you what a sense of relief I have.  I am into day ten now !!! DOUBLE DIGITS!!  and I feel amazing.   I woke up to a sunny day, looking forward to spending the day shopping with my boys.  We are still waiting for our car key issue to be resolved, but I even offered to take the bus, just to get outside and be around people.  Thanks again to all of you for your encouragement.  Its such a great feeling to know that there are people out there who are in my corner...and I in theirs.  We can do this.  :)

xoxoxoox
motb

[ADayToTry]

Wow I am so proud of you!  I sure wish I had done that.  I was off for 6 weeks but got mine refilled on Dec 3rd.  I have felt like crap since then.  I felt so much better when I wasn't taking any. Now I have to do it all over again, because I am totally through with feeling like this.  Now that I know how good I can feel if I don't take anything that is what I am going to do.  I couldn't believe how good I felt when I quit and how bad I felt when I started again.

You are definitely making the right choice.

[jstntime]

Wow,

I understand you are female but that really took a set of "you know whats" to cancel that refill.  I know firsthand how much power that takes to make that call.

Amazing job, it really shows your seriousness to stop and you should be so proud of yourself for winning this battle.  

bob

[dominosarah]

Way to go on telling the pharmacist what is going on!!!!!!!!!  sara

[happynessbythekilowatt]

Wow, that is a huge accomplishment. Congrats on turning the devil himself down! Just remember, stick to your guns and get the sh>it monkey off your back. You are strong. Life will get back to normal faster than you think.

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee ....good work on your part ..I know when I made my call to tell them I dident
need to come in for methadone any more ...I was like so apprehensive I dident know
how they would react they had me at 40mg and in reality I had weened myself down to 10mg and had enough to finish my taper without having to go to the clinic for anny more
it was one of the longest 3min phone calls I ever made...only to have the consolor
get on the phone and congratulate me.....on one hand I had severed my supply
on the other I new if I stayed disciplined I had enough left to finish my taper
but in the end it was a very freeing phone call...one we all need to make regardless
of where we get our supply's from...your making good decisions now thats 1/2 the battle...good luck and god bless.....ill add you to my prayer list...Gnarly  

[leeisgettingclean]

very goood job...that shows that you are growing!!

[merrymaria]

that took a lot of strength....i think you made avery good choice.  it s always good to be honest...congrats to you.....maria :)

[MomOfTheseBoys]

I called and spoke to the Pharmacist, and told him what I am doing, and what my intentions are.  He agreed to cancel the rx, and make a note on my chart.  He also offered congratulations, support and encouragement,and thanked for my honesty.

Just took a nice long shower, felt as if I washed away some of the demons.  
Thank you again, my community friends, for the reminder that I can beat this.. I am not alone!

xoxoxo
motb

[dominosarah]

Cancel the refill.......You dont want to go back to square one.  Call and cancel!!!  You can do this!!!!!!!        sara

[leeisgettingclean]

well you have two options....go get the meds and start this whole cycle over and in about a week, you be out of meds and have to start back at day one, or cancell the meds, call your doctor and tell him that you have no need for the pills so refills are not needed and keep moving foward......either option puts you in the same place in a week or so----out of pills and being clean....the first one though puts you at feeling good in a week and the second one puts you at feeling good for a week and than all this pain again......is it really a test?