starting again

3 months clean, went back on Ultram for realy no reason other then I wanted to because I felt "strong" enough to deal with 1-3 as directed. I'm really mad at myself, no cravings, no good reason other then I did. No I'm back in trouble and spent the last month trying to get off Ultram, and yes, Vicodin. I've beaten the Vic in the past, but this time is different because I never tried to go off both the same time. 7-10 Vic a day, and the Ultram just bounces off on 50MG and I was 10-15 on that. Starting my C/T withdrawl (withdrawal) like last time so I know what I'm in for. There is one thing that is different. I'm very active, running, working out. The last few days I feel like I can just fal asleep. I mean deep sleep. I could be home, feeling tired and it's like I get knocked out, one second being awake, the next she's shaking me asking if I'm ok. Then I'm in bed by 7:00 and don't move until I wake at 7:00 the next day. I thought I remember something like this and it subsided once before, but nothing like just going out like that. makes me afraid to drive. Any light on that, or anything else?

[10356]

welcome back.. sorry it is under these circumstances but your here that's what counts.. I think any of us that taken pain meds prescribed had thought we could go back and do it responsibly.. no can do when you are handing them out to yourself.. like you I ended up consuming more then when I first went off.. do not know what is going on with the sleep but definitely be careful driving.. stay strong and keep a positive attitude.. You can beat this.. You got a taste of freedom and it is good.. remember walk as much as you can when you can.. big benefits.. Keep reaching for support.. I wish you well.. lesa

[worried878]

what can u do different this time?  think aout it..what can u do different this go around?