scared & dont know what to do!!!!....

[Teri9498]

I need some really good advice...so I'm trying so hard to taper these stupid oxycodone...I took methadone for 8yrs  at the highest 100mg & I started tapering in jan2012 & by March 24, 2012 I was done...hardly had any withdrawal...stayed clean for 3months...but started having pain & am now on oxycodone...I have tapered down a lot compared to where I was...but I'm having lots of stress right now w/some things & I notice if the pills are there I take them...I've come soooooo close to just flushing them, but I'm so scared!!...this is NOTHING like the methadone withdrawal..I ran out of the oxy one day & was soooooo SICK!!...I've never been so sick.in my life...layed on the bathroom floor & threw up all day, couldn't even drink water, & I sooooooo HATE throwing up, to.me its the worst thing ever!!!...I seriously want off these pills so BAD & would do anything to be off them!!..I'm just so scared of being that sick, cuz my dose is still pretty high..I try to keep track, but its so hard, cuz some days I take more, if I had to guess its probably around 150mg...if I.just flushed them & got started on getting better how sick so do u think I'll be & for how long...been on them for about 1yr now....just don't know what to do & I'm sitting here crying my eyes out, which isn't helping my migraine from being at the ER all night w/my son....just hate these pills!!!...sorry for going on & on, I just need help!!!!...thank you!  

[EvolverU]

Hi there, Teri! You know, it's weird but the one symptom I didn't encounter coming off M'done was vomiting but I Always encountered it coming off Heroin. Oxys are more similar in their effects to heroin. So, maybe the same thing is happening to you. Please, try not to stress. I know that's so easy to say,. You got some great advice on hydration, ice chips & gatorade (very important to keep those electolytes balanced!) For the nausea  I would suggest the following: Get a piece of fresh ginger. Cut & peel a 1" square & press it through a garlic press into a mug. Throw the pulp in also. Pour simmering water over it & let it steep for 5 minutes. It worked for me & I've seen it work over & over for people here. Use as often as needed.

I think spider6 gave you some Excellent advice re: relaxing (i.e. checking your facial muscles.) There are also videos on YouTube for Progressive Body Relaxation & Guided Visualizations. You might try one of these after a nice hot epsom bath. Deep relaxed breathing & progressive muscle relaxation really do work. (I was doing one last night.)

ariley is absolutely right!! You've got to get determined about this taper. You can't be yo-yo'ing. Try to start telling yourself in every moment that you're much stronger than you know, that this is an unpleasant but necessary initiation into a new life of self-respect & limitless possibilities. I promise you that you can get through it. Try not to fear the pain. Many people find that the more time they put between themselves & their DOC, the less pain they have -- that it's more manageable than they had feared. (Opiates can actually lower our pain threshold!) Teri, please, my friend, don't prolong your misery (it tears down your resolve & your body/emotions.) Let's do this right. You'll be so glad you did!! We're here.

[ariley13]

Hey girl! Please don't be scared. I know it can be a very scary and daunting thing, but the more you stress, the worse your symptoms will be. We hype withdrawal symptoms up to mythic proportions in our heads. The reality is that you are on a pretty moderate dose of oxy. This is doable. You will be sick, but it will be over with in a week (maybe even less). If you are having trouble with your taper and are cheating, you are just dragging this out. You can't go over, under, or around the detox. You must go through it. And while you are going through it, we will be here for you every step of the way. I have a feeling you know what you need to do. I have faith in you and know that you are strong enough to do this. Let's get your life back! I am here if you ever want or need to talk or anything, ok? Sending hugs , love , and strength to you sweetie.

Angela

[spider6]

Hi there Teri
Oh man, I feel for you sweetie.
I really can't add anything intelligent to what your peeps have mentioned above but I still wanted to give you my support.

The headache thing made me cave many times......I have one today that's
just hovering and threatening to torture me.

I can't take anything for them so I have to do other things...I'm supposing coffee isn't a good idea for you right now but that's been my go to these days.  I know this is silly but I check to make sure my face is relaxed because usually it's not....you know.....furrowed brough, clenched teeth, scrunched shoulders up to my ears.....I do my breathing routine and shake myself loose.....the deep breathing tech,. really does help as sarah has said.
Also try to down a glass of water sometimes works.....and it can't hurt to do
a little accupressure......tongue to the roof of your mouth and there's also
pinching the skin between your thumb and forefinger.


I know crying is my worse nightmare when I have a headache.
....can you cry on the inside....(teeny smile?)

.....moment by moment then when you are stronger, maybe hr. by hr. and then day by day......

Rootin for ya sista!
peace, hope and blissful rest
spider.

[smartsick]

  Man, sorry to hear you had to go back on the oxy's......but I'm gonna agree with you about getting sicker getting off the oxy's.  I had to go to a methadone clinic and it saved my life!  12yrs and I'm detoxing off it cold Turkey.  I was doing 40mgs a day when I quit 14 days ago....I suppose each of us react to detoxing from different drugs differently?.....If I were you, I'd try to drop that dosage weekly first....best of luck to you ....You can do it.....so much of all this stuff is in the head....drink lots of water, exercise, and start eating non processed foods.......Peace out...

[dominosarah]

I hope you are getting some rest right now.  When this sort of thing happens try some deep breathing techniques.  It really does help.

[Heather8448]

you are stronger than you know, braver than you think!!

[Teri9498]

Vic..OMG so now I'm crying & laughing at the same time.."your calgone takes me away" comment made me laugh!!..u r 2 cute sweetie!!..thank u!!..that sounds good if my headache would just let up a little, then I could get in some calgone & hopefully get taken away!!..this effin' headache right tho wont let me!!..I'm laying on the couch w/a bag of frozen corn on my head!..haha!!...thanks for all.your comments, you guys have helped me feel so much better!!...love ya all!!!....

[VICourageous]

Teri..It sounds like You have a lot of stress going on that is making it worse too. Can you go get into the Tub with some candles?? You know, like Calgone take me away..Do you have any calm me down teas too?

[Teri9498]

Hi Deb, thank you, they are 20mg oxycodone..I'm just so STUPID after getting off methadone I felt so good, couldn't even imagine taking another pill ever, never even thought about pills, then I started having.pain & well u know the story...I just have probably the worst headache right now from stress, being up all night & for some stupid reason I can't stop crying, which is just making this migraine worse!!!  :(

[Teri9498]

Yes on.methadone for 8yrs, highest dose 100mg, but tapered down to 2mg & stopped, was clean for 3months had some problems, & was put on oxy...I'm on about 150mg of oxy, some days less, some days more...I didn't go 2 the ER for a migraine, I was at the ER w/my son all night & got no sleep, so I have a migraine from that & stress!!... :(

[atthebeach]

Teri you have been doing great on your taper. Hun you can't go back up. Can your husband hold your pills? You can do this keep going down and stay at the same dose for about 4 days then drop again.
Keep going you got this. What mg pills do you have?

You are tired today from being at the hospital. Get some sleep and continue your taper tomorrow.
Sending hope, hugs, prayers and peace,
Denbie

[ROSYouralright]

Hey sweetie!! I'm so sorry everything is so rough right now! Is your son ok??? Maybe B can hand them out to you as prescribed?? I'm here if you need to talk hon. Sorry your having such a rough day! Dry those tears...its all going to be ok

[marycarmel]

I'm a little confused.  Were you on methadone at 100 mg for 8 years?  Or are you on 100 mg of oxycodone?  And what did they give you in the ER for your migraine?  With all you've got going on, you most likely should have a doctor oversee you coming off your meds.

[VICourageous]

I am sorry to hear this Girl..Is there anybody that can hand them out to you..One thing I did notice a oxy w/ds seemed to be over (as far as the real sick part) in a few days but the Methadone for me was different type of w/ds that went on for months. Do you have anybody?? That is a high dose to c/t right now..What do you think you can do??

[marycarmel]

If you could get through the methadone, you can do this.  Get the supplements and other things suggested in the Thomas recipe.  Treat your symptoms.  Try some Imodium; it helps with all the withdrawal symptoms as it has an opiate base that doesn't cross the brain blood barrier.  Stay hydrated.  If you're throwing up, ice chips, clear liquids, Gatorade, popsicles all will help.