HOW?

[mindovermatter10]

I really can't even begin to explain how horrible I feel!!!>>>I try to think I could quit this medication on my own. Like so many I started taking them for severe pain I have been on and off through different surgeries and gotten through w/d's but this time I can't seem to keep from not going back! This is ridiculous I have made my husband so sad and myself I have become something that I am not~ I feel horrible on them and without them my mind is non stop telling me I need them. I know this is a lie. I feel so devastated with what I have become~I would take anywhere from 8-10 hydrocodone a day....I can't do this I know what to expect with withdraw and I am so disappointed I keep going through this~ WHy? I admire all of you for sharing your stories and pray for you! >>God bless! ....I can't wait to get out of this mess to be myself again...I wish someone would have warned me!

[constantbeauty]

Didn't you just post that you already went through the WD process? And being in church helps so much, trust me! Not only that, but posting here through the entire things helps just as much, especially when you're supporting others in their recovery! My hat goes off to the both of you!

[justrealizedineedhelp]

Ur not alone am on that same boat right now....... trying to quit but so afraid of those w/d bc for me they were awful...... n I too am lying to my husband n church that am still clean but the truth is I am not n I feel so worthless.......... u can read my ? I posted one too there u can get the full story. God bless.you

[dominosarah]

I hope you will check into some aftercare.  Using is only a symptom of what is going on with you.  As addicts we bury many demons.  Stay positive.  You can do this!!!   You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills anymore~~~sara

[tgtiffany]

I think already rooting on other people is awesome!!!  It will help you a lot in my opinion!!!  Good luck as well :)

[constantbeauty]

Good luck to you as well! You guys are both on the right track!

[readytohavemyLIFEback]

Be strong and know that you are not alone.  I am 24 hours in.  I was taking 4-6  tabs a day 7.5 Lortab for 3 years.  I'm just waiting for all the symptoms to kick in.  Just keep focused on being free from those stupid pills.  Again, You are NOT alone!!!

[constantbeauty]

Your name answers your own questions and concerns. It's mostly mind over matter. Sure, your body has gotten used to having all these chemicals in it for whatever amount of time you've been dealing with this addiction -- but the important thing here is that you've taken the first steps to your recovery. You've taken your first steps to get right back to who you really are/were, without the nasty pills!

Keep us updated on how things go. You've had some amazing advice here when it comes to drinking lots of fluids, etc. Quitting CT is TOUGH. I know it was for me getting off the pills, but it had to be done and I did it. SO CAN YOU! We are all here for you!  <3

[sudie58]

make sure you drink plenty of fluids, that is very important! i also went cold turkey, you will get through this, get some imodium for any stomache problems or diorreah, also hot baths help a lot, also some fresh air and very light exercise.get a magnesium/calcium supplement and valerian root can help with relaxation, look after yourself.

[criminy1]

Bless you too! You seem to have a really solid attitude about this and I have no doubt you are very strong. You are going to be ok:-)

[mindovermatter10]

I feel most guilty for hurting my spouse! I feel even more guilty for what I have become...I deserve withdrawl I need to be strong...I am strong!>>>Thank you criminy...bless you...

[criminy1]

Keep reminding yourself its no different than the flu for a few days. It will get better even faster than that, though!

I know its easy to feel guilty but think of the withdrawal like younare paying back everyone you care about. Get straight and call the slate clean. You paid the price to start over. That's how I see it:-)

[mindovermatter10]

You guys are a godsend! Thank you it means so much to have support. NO I have no aftercare but I will take your suggestions~! I need help that is for sure! Like most tapering is pointless I just go until they are finished SICK I KNOW! THank you for your concern and hope! I need it now...I feel like such a dissappointment...I never used to be a person who lies or hides how can my husband even look at me? I am a forgiving person and I hope he will be but I don't blame him for being disappointment. I dont have family so you guys mean the world! God bless you sweet people... I am feeling pretty bad I am very jittery!Anxious, sad, nautious, achey etc...I deserve it I know...HOw do you guys move on through the cravings?The mental games? The body pain?...God bless you and keep you...MINDOVERMATTER

[sudie58]

hi, dont beat yourself up, have you thought of some aftercare? such as AA/NA,  therapy, counseling, we need to stay clean after the hard work of getting clean, are you going cold turkey, or tapering? there are things to help with any physical symptoms, keep posting  god bless.

[criminy1]

You and I were on the same does for the same reasons:-)  Do not dispair! The way you feel now is exactly how I felt. Put that all out of your mind because most of it won't matter when you are clean. You can do this!

[tgtiffany]

Hey!  Welcome, this site is amazing, hope it helps you get through everything okay.  First off, I'm glad that you have decided to quit again!  That's amazing.  It's okay that you screwed up, everyone screws up one way or another.  At least you admit that you have made a mistake and that you don't want to be doing this.  Next thing is to make a plan of what you are going to do to get clean!  8-10 hydros a day is a lot, but not the most I've known people taking.  That's how many my husband would take at ONE time so I think you'll get through this just fine.  You say you've done it before, so you know what to expect.  No surprises there I guess, but when you need someone to talk to or when you think you can't go on, come here and post.  It will help :)  And remember that you can do this, you're amazing, even when you think you can't get through it, you WILL!!!  You have to get YOU back!!!  I want you to do something for me.  Every day look into the mirror (at least once a day) and smile and say OUTLOUD "I'm amazing, and I can do this!!!"  Not sure how long you stayed clean before but I'm sure you remember the feeling of being free from the pills.  Remember that feeling and strive for it everyday!!!  Keep us posted on how you're doing! :)