the weekend is here and im worried

[jayeye]

not so much that im going to break down and use cuz honestly even if i wanted to i cant drive on weekends and wouldnt be able to go get anything....im more worried about the boredom....i dont know what to do with myself.

my plan was to see what happens if i stop the low dose of subs after five days....but part of me wants to go out hang out with CLEAN friends the few i have left....but i know if i dont take the subs i wount feel like doing that....should i not be pushing the being social thing....i mean i know its good for me mentally and you know what they say about ideal hands.

[jayeye]

unfortunately we have all lost friends in this game mine was like my brother we were together everyday.....and instead of learning from it I flew off the deep end...I had to be picked up off the floor and slapped back to reality myself  can't but my family through that

[jayeye]

hey everybody thanks again for the support.....like I said took a small dose of the sub yesterday .15.....didn't feel great come midnight but nothing bad managed to fall asleep around 4-5 and slept till 11 can't complain there...haven't taken any subs today at ALL.....overall not to shabby right now I know I still have a lil of the sub floating around me so I'm sure that's helping just getting the hot and cold feeling anxiety and can't site still very antsy but over all not bad at all...sneezing attacks and watery eyes are here lol....and its time for some imodium......took some vit b this morning....not gonna be able to get the rest of the supplies till later tonight hope for the best prepare for the worst....I do know I'm feeling a lil worst as the day goes by but metal is half the battle so can't think that way.....hate when the mind starts racing

[gnarly_1]

Hi the desire to get or stay clean must exseed      the desire to get high....dont give yourself a reason to use... you never have to pick up again............................Gnarly

[dominosarah]

I am talking about the addict behavior, not healthcare.

jayeye, how are you today?

[jugglin]

You have been given the list of things you need.  I highly recommend those Epsom salt baths as hot as you can stand and as many as you want...they are good for relaxing those rls as well as relaxing the mind. Crank the music, watch funny movies, distract that brain of yours. No time like the present my friend...no time like the present. Trust me, if we can all get through this so can you.  We come from all walks of life, all ages, all with work and family obligations.  We aren't any more special..we aren't any more resilient.  We just did it cuz we knew in our minds and hearts there was no other option that came with positive results. You know this...you know the routine...want it bad enough as we want it for you! Sending you prayers for strength, healing, courage!  You got this!

[Jenny9906]

I hope you find a positive way to get yourself through the weekend! :) even if it's just lounging on the couch zoning out on old movies :) hang in there!