very embarrassed, snorting pills

[france30956]

I have been snorting percs and vicodins. I am now going through withdrawal, trying to get off, but part of me can't wait to do it again. I want to be clean, but yet I don't. I am ashamed, no one knows this except my best friend. Please help. I feel like **** right now, going on 36 hours with only one pill as i could not sleep and had terrible restlessness and had to do something to get me thru. One pill in that amount of tiime is nothing for me, I usually do 8 a day.

[darke]

I can't believe this post was 16 hours ago and noone responded...so sorry.

Drugs can cause depression and suicidal thoughts, you need to talk to someone and you need to share your thoughts with someone you can trust not to leave you alone or check yourself into the hospital, where you can have help with the depression and w/ds.

Remeber that w/d symptoms are oppisite of the drugs effects, narcotics relieve pain,w/d makes you in pain. It does go away, there are also replacement therapies. Many times going on a replacement therapy until depression and anxiety is under control increases long term sobriety.

In simple terms look at withdrawl like this. The chemicals have messed up your bodies natural mechanism for balancing itself and dealing with stress. It sees the state of having the drugs as "normal"; the withdrawl syptoms are its way of trying to right itself. You need certain chemicals your brain etc normally produces to feel normal, if you take drugs that mimic them, then your body no longer makes them itself. It takes a while for it to catch on that it needs to start making them again itself, in the meantime you feel like ****. It can take quite awhile for the repair work to be done. Think of it like a  broken bone--it just takes time to mend and often times needs protected by a cast--your brain needs time to heal and sometimes needs to be protected with antidepressents. Will you need to be on them forever? Maybe, if so, so what. It is usually a lack of some sort of coping mechanism that makes us addicts in the first place, and in the big picture antidepressents are like taking something to lower high blood pressure. I know there are descenting opinions on this, but it is something to talk to a proffesional about and your individual situation.

PLEASE call someone NOW.

Remember all you have to do is decide to live for the next minute or even second. If it helps know that almost everyone going through w/d has suicide at least pass through their mind, its more normal than abnormal.

Please post (after the call) and let us know you are OK.


Darke (CADCll)

[Rekoms]

Damn how many of us are doing the pills, this is crazy i just started doing pills a year ago or so, i started slow like 1 pill now and then i didnt even want to do it by choice, just when they was around, when other people was snortin them and i wanted to get a better high then smokein weed, then it got to the point where im buying them then when i aint got them i still feel fine, now i spend 100 buxs a day, on percicet or oxy's,(could be worse everyone i know is shootin herion) thank god im against that but what if im not? im been tempted but talked myself out of it but i allso talked myself out of doing pills im so confused, pills are ******* up my brain its not that we crave pills we are lettin our bodies get use to being painless when im on pills im num when i aint got them i feel every pain i didnt know i had, today is my frist day with out pills in over a year, its not that i cant find them its that im broke ive lost about everything i spend atleast 100 a day sometimes more if all i can find is oxys,

this is just our minds saying we need this aslong as i have something to put in my noise im fine, im wish there was something out there that tasted like percs so i could just have something to tell my mind that i have it... i donno i am allso considering suicide...

[Christina207]

I've been reading this forum and see a lot of people going through hard times. I've been there too. Over and over and over again...fnally i told my doctor. She put down her notebook, her pen, she sat down on the patient bed next to me and said, "the only way you'll change for good, is the day you find someone or something, that you love more than pills, and more than yourself..  We started a tapering program and i quit a few times. and always went back. her words always hung in the back of my mind.  Every time i went back. I'd ask myself...why do i want to go back so bad? ANd it was always the same.  Because than it felt like i had something to live for, something to look forward to.  Escape the fact that i'm so miserable.  A year later I met my husband.  He was in medical school at the time and had no idea i had this problem. A year after that i got pregnant. and bam....that was it....i haven't touched a pill since....not saying it was easy or that i'm never tempted...but it's been 5 years and i'm going strong.  To EVERYONE...life can be SOOOO beautiful...it's amazing...always try to think things through before you act.  I know its hard...i spent SOOOO much time talking to myself...it was like there was 3 of me..the one that said it's ok...then id' say, "it's not ok you loser' then i'd say..."ok...stop...don't be hard on yourself...it's not ok but your not a loser, be strong..bla bla bla' i would liteerally walk around the house and talk to myself out loud...EVERY DAY during withdrawls...but it worked...i dunno...i'm not advising anyone becuase i know when it comes down to it...the choice is OURs. We all know what needs to be done and that it's GOING to be painful..but the results are breathtaking.....I truly am rooting for all of you....
  sincerely, christina

[1moretry]

hang on hun, have been where you are too many times to count. withdrawwrels are horrible...insomnia,diariah and the cold sweats are the worst for me.feels like you are crawling out of your skin...body is freezing yet dripping with sweat at the same time.

[The Hobbit]

I absolutely agree with the exercise thing. It makes me feel so alive and high. The only time I really feel good is when I'm high or I'm worn out from a nice 5 mile run. I run most days

I'm in the right place here I see. I'm in the process of giving the vikies up. I've never been through withdrawal (nor do I want to) after taking 3

[i luv norcs too much]

Hello everyone, Im new to this site, but have alot in common with everyone, I have snorted norcos, and I must say it really hurts. either way. how ever you do your deeds, we're all in the same boat.
I do know what 100% will combat your w/d and eventually alleviate the problem.

Exercise Exercise Exercise!!!!!!!!
(hopefully if you are physically abe to)
The Dope releases endorphins and seritonins in your body (some of you probably know about the science of it all)and when you exercise and work your self until you "feel the burn" your body achieves that same dope high. I run 5 miles and I feel genuinely better than when i take norcos. but we all know how pricly they are. Exercise and allow your self to have some shred of will power.Im going to say it ...Quit bieng a b*&#H!! Im going to tell you the advice I took when I got locked up in jail for a month. obviously on 23 hour lock down no one is sliding vicodins under your door. I meditated, did pushups till i was exhausted, jumping jacks. all that. after a few days the only thing i was pissed off about was being in jail. not not having vikes. sounds crazy, but that was an eye opener for real!!!
but long and the short. I love Vicodins and somas. but when they are no where to be found. wow, what a horrible feeling.
you cannot think you can casually take these things. I'm sorry if Im not sugar coated enough for anyone. but these things will put a glaze in your eye like a lyon at the zoo. dont wanna chase life and all of its OTHER enjoyable  facets. remember when you DIDNT TAKE VIKES?? I do... I use to conquer the world. now Im slowin down.

All I can say is F##% this feeling!!
Hope my sincerity helps;)