Day 9

[phipps68]

I did good for most of the day.....I didint have those urges until about 4. That's when i had to take a small piece of suboxone.... I was going out of my mind....I wanted a pill so bad! Thank god for the subby....Work is so difficult without opiates...When I was wasted all the time I could not stop working. Now without the OC everything just takes so much effort....Sometimes I feel like I need pills to just to function. I have been drinking starbucks double shots of expresso for energy, taking vitamins, drinkind plenty of water, green tea....

Some nights I feel like everything sucks because I cant snort pills anymore....I am just so bored all the time!

[feohmoon]

Great job!!!  Stay strong - you have come too far.  
Zinc helps with cravings    Magnesium helps with depression
Get some aminos - that will help with energy too.  The vitamins, minerals and herbs man - gotta have'em!

[worried878]

congrats philip...u r doing great...weakness is part of this **** i think...creeps in when i least expect it...then I feel hot and i have to wait for it to pass...but it passes

[phipps68]

Thank you! I do feel good about day 10... I am just sick of being tested everyday after work by my concious! I will try the chocalate

[GoingToMakeIt]

A really dark chocolate 70%+ helps with cravings. Don't eat it too late though. It can wake you up. Congrats on the 10 days!

[phipps68]

How will I survive without coffee I just removed the opiate I cant kick the Java.... On today day 10 was a better day but i find myself craving the pills after work.....I got to fight off the urges to get them....because I want them!!! So far so good....

[phipps68]

How will I survive without coffee I just removed the opiate I cant kick the Java.... On today day 10 was a better day but i find myself craving the pills after work.....I got to fight off the urges to get them....because I want them!!! So far so good....

[NautyOne]

You are reaching the time when anxiety can start.  Stay away from the coffee......thats wah

[toxictome]

TOO MUCH CAFFEINE?!?!?!? :D

or maybe from anxiety?

I can't answer the rest of this question because i can't think of the word I want to use...my brain is having trouble recalling words...

mouthguard..but that's not the word I'm looking for!!!  yikes!!!

[phipps68]

another thing! I cant stop clenching my jaw...I find myself grinding my teeth too.....any ideas?

[road2recovery]

SOSO proud or you...I know it is tough...BUT i will tell you , that at almost 6 months clean, it is like i am just a new person in a new world...Kind of a weird feeling but great..
I dont' remember much of the days when i was detoxing, unless i went back and read what i wrote on the forum...lol....but i PROMISE keep going , every  hour counts, and you will be free, with a whole different outlook, and won't be in that fog, i do know it is tough, but stick with it and stick with us, that is the only reason i am clean today.
it will be 6 months on the 4th of mar.....And i do have aftercare...not N/A or A/A, i have a counsouler, and helps me so much...
god bless
r2r

[cathy5841]

you are well on your way to being drug free.  awesome.  it takes time for your body to return to its predrug days.  give it some time, it does happen.  concentrate on the good things about being free.  i agree you do need a new interest to occupy your time now.  give it some thought.  have you treid n/a aftercare is really important.  i do understand where you are coming from..my doc was oxy and i snorted it too.  i have 70+ days clean and still ahve the not sleeping so good (it is much better)  and energy is slow to return...but i try to stay busy.  this forum has become my new addiction.  keep doin what your are doing it gets better.

[phipps68]

Coffee... Redbull...Ginseng none of it is really any good for you....maybe i will try the 5 hr energy drink....Has anyone here ever had that?

[phipps68]

Coffee... Redbull...Ginseng none of it is really any good for you....maybe i will try the 5 hr energy drink....Has anyone here ever had that?

[lostmarbles]

hey phipps well done you on your day 9.. thats good news... keep away from the caffeine as chichi said,,, not good and it will make you anxious and shaky...

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

be strong and I know you have no energy but the caffeine is not real good for you right now. I guess you do what makes you get through this but trust me you are doing great on day 9. I'm about to head the kids to bed PM me if you need any support in the morning.
Chi

[toxictome]

Congrats on Day 9!!!

WAY TO GO!!!
Sounds like you need to find some new interests or hobbies...
you need something to fill your spare time for awhile!!!

Lack of energy is a part of the process....it will return...you need to give it some time.

Keep on working it...you're doing good!!!!

[confused456]

Good job on day 9!!! Thats where I am too. We will get through it!!! Best of luck to you!!!