why do we use drugs ,when we don't need them.

hippy

this question is a real tough question, for addicts.
im speaking about all the addicts who abuse drugs
. looking back i started useing to fit in
,peer presure, i found that drugs made me feel better, and took
away all my emotional pain, i knew i was doing something wrong
and drugs became a way of life, along with dishonesty,
and stealing, and dealing the whole life style.
and i started at age 13 and by the time i was 18
I HATED MYSELF AND THE WAY I LIVED AND THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT. and that is why i used, i hated me.
when i did try to get clean ,i would get a couple weeks together
and then this obsession to use would come over me FROM MY HEAD TO MY TOES AND IT WOULD SAY TO ME, YOU CAN COME NOW OR YOU CAN COME LATER ON TONIGHT BUT WE ARE DEFINITELY USEING.
AND I ALWAYS USED.
AFTER A NUMBER OF YEARS USEING DRUGS BECAME LESS AND LESS OF AN ESCAPE, it was no longer about getting high but about just getting ok ,so i could make through the day or the job.
the more i used the more i hated my self, it was a vicious
cycle.
the only way out was totol abstinence,andto learn how to grow up, i think most addicts stay at the age of 16 untill they make
a concience effort to change.

just some thoughts, hippy

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Chezz

Good morning Michael. You got mail. ;)
I had a question or 2.
Chezz

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hippy

talking about positive things is the thing i want to hear more
of , like how the receipe is a life saver, and  how the people
on this fourm are so supportive
and may a add they make mistakes , we have to allow for that in
other people, we as addicts have unrealistic expectations
on others.

so allow for a few screw ups now and  agian.
it is raining  hear in philly  im working the 2nd shift
tis week, so i will out from 2 to 10.

stay positive
peace!!!!!!!

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hippy

hey pimp, good mornin
hope you have weathered the storm
of nothingness

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PimpShit

Thanks Chezz. You and deva's post's are about the only 2 that have been even worth anything.

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hippy

WHEN YOu know something you dont have to tell anyone it's
like holding aces

next dont' give advice unless asked

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Chezz

Thanks Jess for breaking it down. I guess my lack of sleep and just reading his post and not getting down far enough to your response and intellect didn't help.
Next time I will read a little more before I post. :)
That and maybe get some sleep. lol
Chezz

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