My heart goes out to all of you. People dont have a good understanding of what your going through. Please be brave and know my prayers are with you. I have a son that is about to try and quit. I dont know how much he is taking but I found 3 of the little white 319 pills in his room tonight and they led me to this site. He was on oxy and I think heroin for about a year. When I found out I tried to open the door rather then close it. recently he is admiting he cant manage his adiction and needs to stop. In the last few months we have been talking alot and he has gone through withdrawals (non voluntarily) a few times for a couple days at a time. He tried a suboxane treatment program but couldnt continue because he had other drugs in his system. He has been getting suboxone off the street and has not wanted to quit because he didnt want to get fired from his job. I told him if he quit work I would support him while he goes through withdrawels. He has agreed but I am affraid he will cheat himself and take stuff for the withdrawals. Im not sure what to do or how to help him. Any suggestions are appreciated. So you know , Im very proud of him for telling me about his problems and confiding in me because he is very proud and I dont think any less of him. I will do what I have to to help him even if it means being mean but I am affraid of where the line is between being supportive and making it worse or so unbearable he goes back. Your all much braver then you think and stronger, even though you may feel weak now your not really you just think you are. Think of what people have survived and tell yourself its not you thats the problem its the drug and the addiction.
I have never been prescribed painkiller. I get them from people I know. I was clean a year and I started doing them again. It started small but my tolerance built up rather heavily. I take oxy "OP" the kind you can't sniff. Every now and them I find the 30s you can snort. I take 20s, 30s, 40s, 60s, or 80s. I am scared because I have such a high tolerance one 80 doesn't affect me hardly anymore, it's about enough to hold off withdraw. I have to have at least 140-to 160 mg to feel anything. I have to take over 200 at one time to get high. I am seriously concerned because it seems like I am just draining myself physically, mentally, and financially. I want to stop but I never make it more than a few days. I can't remembered the last time I went an entire week without something. If anyone is reading this I strongly urge you to quite as soon as you can. It's not to late to me but it's cost me tens of thousands of dollars, my relationship, and I am in college and it has set me back alot due to bad attendance and I have failed some classes in the past and have to retake them. Stop before it's to late, in the end you will just be broke and alone. I have fought off depression and suicide and found reasons to live. I dont want to die, I have a great family and a lot to live for. I hope I can quite and make it through this, I have tried exercise, over the counter cold medicine or pain meds (like tyenol) they seem to help a little, sudafed taken as the recommended dosage helped me through a few days and eased my withdraw symptoms. I sleep way to much, I feel like it's a side effect of the withdraw. I will sleep 10,12, 14, 16 hours at a time, one day I slept off and on for a total of 20 hours. I was awake 4 hours and slept almost 20 (slept 14 hours, woke up for 2 hours, fell asleep for another 6 hours, and woke up for another 2 hours before going to sleep again for the night of a different day. I've been worried about the overstepping, I have no energy or motivation when I don't have any meds. Is there a way to get over the sleeping issue? I just want to be normal again and sleek 8 hours a day, have energy to do things, not feel down/depressed, not think about pills, save my money for better things, be my old self again, and live a normal productive life. I am looking into the website: www.turntohelp.com now to try and find ways to get help. I don't want to be admitted to rehab, I need to maintain my normal life while getting the treatment I need to quite opioid once and for all. If anyone has any useful advice or info/ resources they can share with me please let me know. Thank you and good luck to anyone out there who is in a similar situation. God bless you and may we all find the ways and the will/strength to take our lives back....
man I'm even more nervous about stopping now. I'm like all of u. my life is a big lie. I have chrons disease and that's how I started. I get 150 percent 10z every 3 weeks. I eat them up in a week then ihave to buy them. maybe I cut back and slowly but surely get off of them!
i have been on sixty mg oxys for eight yrs know i am startin in the mornin only takin forty five mg a day i was told hr body dont k,ow the amount ur vettin it just knows u r so will i b able to quit like that
I have been abusing then for over twenty years..quit but always came back..i been sober off booze for over 9 mos but these things got a hold of me so bad I feel like I will die without then..i have with speed an cigarettes an this hands down.is the hardest. I am 43 an problem is I like them an want to take them forever but I know its wrong. They were like an anti depressant to me but now I can't even feel them. I feel sick before I get high..i feel like I'm withdrawling even when I.have the damn.things.i have high blood pressure an I don't want.a dr knowing my business..i got to get healthy this yr or I doubt I will be around for next
I have been taking narcotic pain meds for 13 years. Morphine,diladid,percocet....anything to kill my chronic pain symptoms. I have now been offf them for ! week. This has been such a trial to go through but it is worth it because I feel free again.The pills were my crutch and my enemy. I wont lie this is the hardeset thing ive ever gone through...I still crave and think of pills all the time but damnit im not gonna give in. If anyone out there needs support email me at ***@****