withdrawls

[Care_2001]

Hello,
I will try and make this short.  I am not a herione addict..I hate needles in fact.  I recently got married and I have fibromyalgia. so I am in a lot of pain.. My husband lied to me and told me he was taking valium but i found out he had been taking methadone for 9 yrs.  I ask him to quit. instead he started giving me small doses of his meth for my pain..next thing i know I am taking his nightly dose of 40 mgs every day for 5 months. I have to get off this..I am going to divorce him at some point in time. He likes the drug and I have made the worst decision of my life getting addicted to a drug like this. I did take lorecet for quite a long time for my fibromyalgia . I am taking 35 mgs this week and plan on decreasing 5 mgs per week until i get down to 5.I have some xanax and valium i can use if needed.. thn..but i was wondering if you could tell me how bad it may be>? I refuse to go to a clinic to detox..I know I can do this on my own within 2 months.I believe very strongly in God and he will be there to help me.
God Bless
CARE

[Witchywoman]

Thanks for thinking I'm not too wacko for that silly little song.

For me, getting silly helped me a lot, but that's just me.  ::blushing

I'm glad to hear you are down to just one amp a day. That's great!
I wish I could get the bup prescribed for pain. I've tried two docs now, and both offered me oxy but said the bup would not be strong enough for the pain I reported. Silly me. I should have said I have less pain than I actually do and maybe they'd have let me try bup.

I'd actually consider flying to florida to get pain management through the clinic there, but my husband was laid off from work and we have down a huge portion of our income, so that option will have to wait. Who knows, maybe the facet joint injections I had the other day will work. The Doc said that it can up to two weeks before we know if they will have a positive effect.

love,
WW

[1fortheroad]

i'm always up early - i have a six-year old, who doesn't usually sleep past 7 a.m.

the surgery went well - i get the stitches out tomorrow, and i'll hopefully have the left hand done in two weeks.  i had a hard time not using my right hand, and because of that i ripped a stitch.  it's ok tho - thanks for asking:)

i too wonder what happened to j.b.  i really miss schlub too - remember him?  i heard from him about a month back - we used to email each other frequently, but it just kinda dropped off.  i think i'll shoot him a note today.

how are YOU doing?  i hope all is well with your detox...i don't know how you do it!

[skipper]

groovy:
are you the only other person awake? i can't recall a weekday
where so many people are "sleeping late." i was also kind of
hoping JB would have drooped us a few words. i'm kind of getting
concerned.

how goes carpal tunnel surg. recovery?

keep an angel on your shoulder
kip

[1fortheroad]

missy - good luck this weekend!  remember what ww said in a previous post about w/ds not being anything you can't handle.  i know they suck, but you sound as prepared and determined as you'll ever be.  drink tons of gatorade (sp?) - it has the electrolites in it that you will lose if you get the runs really bad - better than water initially i think.  the amino acids are really important too...but, i guess you know all that already.  i don't normally post much on the weekend, but if i'm around i will definitely check up on you.

ww - that was cute, and whatever works for you is a-ok in my book.  maybe i'll try it...when no one is looking!  i'm down to about 1 amp (bup) per day...two on bad days.  this is down from 5 or 6, so i guess i'm getting there.  this stuff is expensive, and my insurance does not cover it.  when i was taking more, i was spending over $500 a month on it...i'm telling you, these addiction clinics get you coming and going.  they KNOW you are desperate, and if you have the money you'll pay anything to feel better.  anyhow, i'm glad you're still smiling...

[MissyD]

Wow,
  You all have such great things to share...I will be starting the Cold Turkey on Friday morning.  I am going to have my child here and I am going to just come down with the Flu...My husband has agreed to do this with me.  So that will be the Day...I will try to be on here and get the support that I so need.  I know that it takes about 3 days for the rough physical stuff to get out of my system, so by Monday I should be doing better.  I went to the store this afternoon to get things that my child can make to eat, or easy things that I can throw together easily.  I also got my husband and I some bread (toast, I seem to be able to keep that down) and some soups.  I am scared because I know that it hurts and I will feel so sick, but I will keep and angel on my shoulder and really know in my heart that it will be better.  I keep saying to my husband, "I am so done with this"...I am so tired of it, I am just fed up!!! It's to the point that I could take 10 pills at one time and probably not feel much, it's controlling my life and it is just getting old.  I will get some counseling when I am not physically sick...I will be able to see clearly and think straight.  I want this really bad.  So when I post on here that I am sweating and throwing up..keep telling me that it will be better every day:)  
  Now the question that I am sure you will ask...what about my husband?  Well, he feels the same as I do about this whole thing getting "old"..and says that he wants to stop.  I think he will do it, but I will handle it either way..I will not live with someone that is doing drugs, and I won't live with someone who can't commit to me and my child.  So the game is over...your either with me..or NOT...  I love him, but I love me more.  So basically I pray he is serious, but if he can't do it.  Then he needs to go get some help..or he will have to leave.  I want my life back.  I will not die anymore.  I am dying...
  So I will be finishing up my chores today and tomorrow and Friday will be the day......lots of love...
Missy

[skipper]

hey there:
ww i really didn't believe youn would do it....your qualified to
be one the truebluest fun to have around people. my life has al-
ways been punctuated by such people. my wife doesn't know how
much she is this way and it's from the very best part of her.
you ww are 100% genuine person with foot on ground...

ok the 10 junkies in a bush: i had a friend early on in recovery,
a orderly at a cd unit. this guy was missing half his teeth and
hair. he had 30 year drug carreer that would put most of ours to
shame. i know he had this actual real story that envolved 10
junkys, hiding in a bush. by that point i would be laughing so
hard i missed the rest. ya know the people dearest to my heart
are the ones i cleaned up with. just let me salute Mike Holder,
where ever he is...he is missed by kip and sherri.

and to you witchy woman, top honors for the best belly laugh of
the whole week so far! keep up the good work, we all can take
credit in the fact that you have gotten and stayed clean, but it
is far more intresting watching you be humble about it. now re-
member i told you some stuff about the nasty side of my life, but
if you keep me laughing and seeing the "clean side" your way, i
may just never be that way again!

keep an angel on your shoulder
kip