withdrawls

[Care_2001]

Hello,
I will try and make this short.  I am not a herione addict..I hate needles in fact.  I recently got married and I have fibromyalgia. so I am in a lot of pain.. My husband lied to me and told me he was taking valium but i found out he had been taking methadone for 9 yrs.  I ask him to quit. instead he started giving me small doses of his meth for my pain..next thing i know I am taking his nightly dose of 40 mgs every day for 5 months. I have to get off this..I am going to divorce him at some point in time. He likes the drug and I have made the worst decision of my life getting addicted to a drug like this. I did take lorecet for quite a long time for my fibromyalgia . I am taking 35 mgs this week and plan on decreasing 5 mgs per week until i get down to 5.I have some xanax and valium i can use if needed.. thn..but i was wondering if you could tell me how bad it may be>? I refuse to go to a clinic to detox..I know I can do this on my own within 2 months.I believe very strongly in God and he will be there to help me.
God Bless
CARE

[skipper]

good morning everyone:
it is 4:30 am in ground zero town. my wife got up at 3:00 am and
was out of the house by 4:00 am. work- early flight to the city of frost bite. business....

this thread really fits and hits home as i'm in day 2 of a regularly planned detox. i've been using bup this time. yesterday i was absolutely discomfort free. i took two .2mg bup tablets in the am before work. at mid morning i took 1/2 mg klonopin. at  supper two more .2mg tabs of bup and another 1/2 mg of klonopin. at bedtime i took 10 mg of baclofen (a neural muscle relaxer). i was awake just before the clock went off.... by the weekend i hope to go cold except for the baclofen.

opiate withdrawal is not the monster in every addicts closet that
it is made out to be. it is difficult, but very do-able. the thing about deto/withdrawal is it is always beter to choose where and when for yourself. i prefer the relative safety and comfort of home. in 35 years of drugs i've detoxed just about everywhere. the most memorable was the floor of the county jail in mpls and ia. city. ya' know the cardinal rule of being a junky....every-
body comes down sooner or later...no exceptions...so choose your
time and place with care. there are ways that are easier...

keep an angel on your shoulder
kip

[earlygrayce]

i'm sorry things are so bad. i would suggest watered-down gatorade or powerade instead of sprite. watered-down because even those two conatin such a high concentration of sugar. otherwise, the first step is admitting you need help. most people can't kick this type of problem alone. counseling and anti-depressants (serzone) have helped me tremendously. it was a big step for me admitting i needed either of those as well. and i will also venture a theory, one that certainly may be wrong, but it will be 1000 times (maybe more) harder for you to get and stay clean if your husband keeps up his addiction. if you love him and plan on being with him for the rest of your life i would think you two would need to go through this togethor. again, i may be wrong and i don't know you, so if i shouldn't have said those things i am sorry.
i'm sure the others on this board can be of much more help and offer much better advice than i can. whatever happens, you are in my thoughts.

[hellbent]

Are you sure you wouldn't be more comfortable with a methadone taper? I've never been on done for more than 3 weeks, but I understand that it can be very difficult to stop. I know you don't want to go to a clinic, but they will take you down in 21 days. For 19 days or so, you will be able to function normally, you will have plenty of time to get stuff wired down if need be. The afterkick won't be nearly as bad as stopping cold right now. Finally, clinics are anonymous, there will be no backlash with medical records. They also usually have counseling if needed.

When I stopped, from a horrendous habit that was both Klonopin and Oxycontin, I didn't sleep for 24 days. I lived through it. You won't have nearly this type of difficulty. If succesful, you will probably look back in a month or so and be extremely grateful you stuck it out, no matter what method you use to beat it.

[MissyD]

God, I am sitting here crying and I know what I have to do yet I am so scared.  My husband is out getting more right now.  He is going to get busted by the doctor and all hell is going to brake loose.  I know that I have to get away and you were right (when I read that my heart did stop)..but I want to stop.  We talked tonight and we want this, we are both so tired.  The lies, the clock watching, the watching the world from the inside and not living in it.  I know it has made his life easier to have me right there with him, Like I said before I am not putting blame on him, but I feel as though I was the strong one in this marriage and now I have lost my way.  I don't have the strength or power as I did before.  I have gotten my affairs in order and see that starting this Friday I can stop.  I have to figure out what I am going to do with my child.  
  This is all just crazy, I am one of those people (just like all of you) that you would never ever think would be doing this.  Originally I did the drugs and it made me feel so good, like I could do anything.  Now it's at the point that I don't even leave the house.  I feel so empty inside.  I have lost all my friends.  At least the ones that I would go and do things with. I have been able to maintain a few phone friendships.  I have isolated myself, and I want my old life back.  
  I thank you all so much for sharing with me and I will be looking to you for support in the coming days.  I will be doing this cold turkey, I have valium I can take and I will go and get some Imodiam AD...and some soup and Sprite.  Anyone have any other suggestions.  I am ready...I am so ready...I just need to get everything in order the next few days.  (believe me this is not a cop out.  I would do it now if I had the safe environment for my son, but I need to handle that)  
  If I can't get him to stay anywhere I guess we can just say that mommy and daddy have the flu.  Ideally I don't want him here.  Ok....god, this is weird posting.  Like I said I have spent months reading and waiting to be here and get off these..but I just couldn't be held accountable, or handle the thought of going on.  
  I am also at the point that I am so depressed and feel like I have no purpose.  I can't wait to see light again.  How long does it take??I know everyone is different but I have never stayed clean for more than 2-3 weeks.  This is going to be different....The sleeping is what kills me..I can't sleep.....Ok..not going to stress on that now..one thing at a time.

  Once again thank you so much for posting and I feel as though you know me, like you really really know me....or is it, that when it comes down to it we are really all quite alike?  When we abuse we are looking for something and that makes us have similar views?  Whatever it is, it feels good to be able to "say it out loud" the abuse ..the word drugs. And addicted.  I don't ever say that to anyone other than my husband.  It's like this little dirty secret and it is just festering inside me.  The secret life that I live..it now can be shared and that gives me such comfort.  Does that make any sense?  It's almost like I am saying all this outload...
   I would love to hear more, please keep writing to me, and any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you so much.  
Missy

[earlygrayce]

first off, i'm happy my habit never got to your level or length of time. but please don't question what I went through (and in some cases am still going through). all i wanted to do was give my experiences regarding withdrawal and offer support. everyone's experience is different. that is pretty obvious to me every time i read a post on this board. if people get frightened by reading my, or someone else's, experiences going through drug withdrawal, i'm sorry, but that is REALITY for me. i am not, nor would i ask anyone else to sugarcoat their experiences just so someone else doesn't get scared or offended. i think and hope we are all adults here. i pray no one goes through what i went through, then again i know i did not have it as hard as others. good luck with your efforts.

[MissyD]

Hello Everyone: (my first post, a bit nervous)
  It's only taken my 3 months to finally post.  But here I am finally.  I am in a really bad situation.  My husband has been off work for over a year now and I have been slowly going down a really destructive path.  My husband has been on painkillers (Vicodin, oxy, Norco, The Fentynal patch.) and I have become part of this cycle.  We are getting into a really bad place and I want out.  I have been too weak to stick to a plan of action.  I have gone cold turkey probably 15 times in the past 15 months.  I hurt and then I start to get free and it becomes so hard to stay off it.  My husband is really addicted and has only stopped when a doctor has "cut" him off, we have run out and can't find a way to get more..etc...  But I am so tired of planning everything around the drugs.  I am a middle class family, but this life is taking everything away.  I don't want to go anywhere....I am tired and I am not being a good person.
  I don't know what to do.  I know that my husband will not stop until the world takes it away from him.  I am not trying to blame everything on him, after all I am the one who is putting the meds in my mouth.  But I want to stop and then I want to live in a drug-free environment.  I don't want the lying, sneaking...But I am scared.
  I am taking about 15-20 norco aday.  I need help.  I know I can do this on my own...but that's not the hardest part.  The part after you stop is the hardest part.  The part where my husband comes home with "more" is the hardest part.  I hope that I can be brave enough to post this.  I just wanted to hear from someone and maybe learn some ways of coping...some ways to get off this and some ways to stay off it.  
I hope to hear from someone..it would mean a lot.  
Thanks ..Missy