i am going to delete and block my hook ups numbers today so im not tempted. this has to be done
I love the saying that nobody ever died of opiate withdraws - you know this, they $uck though without a doubt. You have got to block those numbers now. You have to take the steps and put in the work. You have worked so hard at this before and you deserve a clean life. Fight for yourself. You CAN do this. You have to change your thought process...your behaviors. Start anew today and throw yourself in that ring...you are ready for the fight!
It has been 34 minutes since you posted....did you delete and block the number?? This person is NOT your friend. He/she is only looking out for themselves. Most of us have real jobs that we go out and earn an honest dollar. We arent selling drugs. All you are is his rent payment, his utility payment etc and all the while he/she is selling you something that is killing you. Some friend huh?
I am 52 yrs old. Started using around 13 and cleaned up when i was 46. My point is i have been clean for almost 19 yrs total out of those 52 yrs. I used most of my life and i am here to tell you it can be done. Join me on this side of recovery~
Sorry, that post was meant for you, not kellygirll.
I swear every time I read some of what you guys post I get chocked up...in a good way...part of the emotional roller coaster ...I did block the numbers
I'm in such a better stat of mind today I have to say.....I actually am feeling strong enough to do it....I'm ready for the storm I want off this ride I've been on playing Russian roulete everyday I want a real life.
I'm ready to feel again I did it once I can do it again I have to forget the past have confidence today and not fear the future.....one day at a time....I'm not even thinking about getting high I'm just thinking about how good it will feel to prove all that doubt me wrong.
thanks for the words as always guys angels in disguise
Good on your for blocking that number!!!!
That's why it ***** for you. You think you can do Subs and still use. Until you get your mind right and your life straightened out you're never going to be able to stop using drugs, Subs or no Subs. Never, unless it kills you first.
I was on 8mg Suboxone the last 2 years and used that time to break ties with the people I used to do drugs with, buy drugs from, and places I did drugs at.
Now I have a place of my own. I'm not spending every last dime I have on opiates and going to the local church for supper, my only meal of the day, because I spent all my grocery money on drugs..
I'm not spending 9-10 days at a time laying on the couch sick as a dog going through withdrawals, only to go find more opiates once I got well.
I don't have to worry about getting busted or shot, and I don't have to worry about where, or if, I'm going to be able to get the drugs I need to make it one more day through that hell that substitutes for a life. And I lived that life for over 30 years before I finally had enough of it.
3 months ago I started tapering myself down and went from 8mg a day to 0.25mg a day without so much as one night when I didn't sleep. It didn't even start to begin to compare with the withdrawals I went through from Methadone, Dilaudid, or Oxycontin.
Now I've been off all drugs for the past few days and not haven't any withdrawal symptoms or PAWS at all. I know about the long half-life, but was on 0.5mg a say for several weeks and 0.25mg a day for a few days before I stopped, so it's not because I still have a lot of it pumping through my system.
You can blame it on Suboxone, your friends, the dog, or anything else that you like, but it come down to you. It's your life, you are the one that has to change, and no pill is going to do it for you. It's only going to give you the chance to change, if you let it, and you work at it.