I'm doing it! CT off alcohol

[Charlie's girl]

I have been drinking about a magnum of wine(red or white) plus a few vodka drinks a day.  Or, I have about a fifth of vodka a day.  It's the first thing I thnk about in the morning instead of coffee!!!!!!  Any suggestions?  I really need to do this privately.
Thanks.

Charlie

[Charlie's girl]

Uggg....  I hate my primary care doc.  She is so annoying.  Maybe I will see a new person.  It's tough because she sees my husband and his family.  I'd rather go somewhere else anyway so maybe now is the time.  I'll keep you posted.  Today is my first day with out any alcohol.  Tomorrow is my first meeting.

Charlie

[ibizan]

yes girl u got the PAWS goin on!Campral can come from family doc.YES u need to tell them why u need it!r u epileptic as well?If ur taking other meds docs need to know.Campral is compatible with many!Do u think ur alone in asking for Campral?MANY have used it......and succeed..thats why its out there for u!NO u cannot make xcuses as 2 why u need it......ur getting honest about ur problem......so important to be honest with doctors.this is YOUR life and health here!yes u have crazy things conjurd up in ur head....its the alcohol...not the real u.Who is the REAL charlie girl?

[Charlie's girl]

Ibizan,  Thanks for the words of encouragement.  I needed that.  I looked up PAWS and Campral.  I can relate to PAWS.  Who would I get the campral from?  Will they ask me any questions about why I want it?  I don't want them to know that I'm getting help.  I will feel branded.  Can I use another excuse why I need it besides detox?

Dark69, I'm not very religious or at all.  It would be nice if AA was neutral as far as I'm concerned.  Plus I think I'm going to be creeped out about holding some strangers hand to pray....  I have all these crazy things conjured up in my head .. I'm going alone and not telling anybody just you guys.  I need to get a few weeks sober behind me and then I might tell me husband.  It's all I think about now.  I feel like I'm going insane...  
I'm proud of you dark.  Keep up the good work.  you seem happier,right?

Charlie

Charlie

[dark69meat]

The God thing is really a tough one for me because religion was crammed down my throat as a kid.  It's just hard to ignore; trying to be open mind, but still.  It was just one guy over-the-top God!!!  God almighty!!!

[ibizan]

dark-i've encountered many who feel as u do bout the God stuff.....they let this turn them off and didn't return.....and u know what happened...so they returned.ur a computer geek so i know u can DELETE this stuff!:)))))))Charlie-many heavy liquor drinkers xperience the PAWS.if u google it u'll relate.ur NOT a loser.......ur grey matter is discombobulated from the booze.the wondrous thing bout grey matter is that it can re-generate if u stop soaking it!

[dark69meat]

ibizan -
I meant to say.."I won't hold judgment ... they  'appeared' to be interested only getting me sober and helping; that's good enough! I really don't understand 'withdrawals', because I really don't have any expect mentally and the craving.

Charlie G - I'm the same as you basically.... not in denial, but can't stop on my own, and feel like a loser.  I too have always been shy and didn't want to interact at first, but they cater and really take and interest what you want to accomplish.  Another girl (not Molly) provided the weekly schedule and another a book for the whole state.  Everyone was nice; again no big dea, but they were focusedl!  I've only gone once so far, I'll probably shoot for twice a week.