I'm doing it! CT off alcohol

[Charlie's girl]

I have been drinking about a magnum of wine(red or white) plus a few vodka drinks a day.  Or, I have about a fifth of vodka a day.  It's the first thing I thnk about in the morning instead of coffee!!!!!!  Any suggestions?  I really need to do this privately.
Thanks.

Charlie

[dark69meat]

ibizan - personal question... did you ever relapse yourself?...."vd Drunks 1995 starring Richard Lewis"... wonder who has it for sale like cheap *** boss?  Molly sqeezed my hand at the meeting / circle, it felt good like she was trying to help, me thinks... I have no idea.  People were honest there which was beautiful, and the F word was permitted... bonus.

[ibizan]

Ya gotta get the dvd Drunks 1995 starring Richard Lewis.he is in real life sober/clean heroin addict.Great depiction of AA,his relapse and subsequent return.many times when saying the Lords prayer i would just bow my head and say nothing.the circle,the handholding emitted a sobering energy.Cutting down is good charlie,but we ALL know it won't last.Ur caterpillaring girl!Benzos are addictive for alcs/addicts not a good choice to calm down with.If used should be very short term for withdrawal...and monitored by a doc!

[dark69meat]

If I would have 2 drinks at dinner, I would want to have 10.  'benzo', no, I don't take anything -- nothing yet, might later tho.... dunno.

[Charlie's girl]

I hear you and I'm listening.  I'll be going next week I promise.
I've been really good lately.  I have been feeling so guilty so I totally cut down on my intake.  It's a start.  I feel better already.  Yesterday I only had two drinks at dinner with my husband.  I felt really anxious all day though, kind of shaky and nauseous.  
Dark are you taking a benzo?  

Charlie

[dark69meat]

I was not that nervous after all; people are people regardless.  I've been to different parts of the world so maybe that helps.  They didn't know if I was visiting from another town or what.  I just walked in and sat down like I owned the place, only later offered the information it was my first time.  They did ask if this was any one's 1st,2nd or 3rd time.  We don't pay dues (2 dollars) until the 4th time if you want.   All nice folks and I was treated like royalty because it was my firt meeting.  The babes were all over me... will kind of...;-)

Yes, we certainly could have gone together Charlie... I like you're proactive with sitter and thinking about this.  And glad we're an influence, mainly ' ibizan '  *high five*.  All my meetings are non-smoking, but folks go outside of course.  I encourage anyone to go if they're struggling w/quitting like me.  I'm powerless, no doubt and surely want beer this afternoon, but it's one day at a time, as cliche as that is

I felt bad in some ways because my brief 10 min story at the meeting did not include 'bottoming out', DUI's, lost wife, job etc.  It seemed they were all there because they got in trouble and reacting to the situation or forced by court order.  Maybe that's my perception. The good news is they all said they were glad the program worked for them and turned their life around.  All ages were there.  One guy 65, drank a bottle of wine every night and 30 days sober and VERY proud.  Another, pretty girl, drank a box of wine every night since 17, then got DUI and she was GLAD to be pulled over so she could get sober.  She later said, she wouldn't go on her own, only if she got in trouble... thought that was interesting.

I might go to another meeting this weekend.  Their energy helps me and everyone is there for one reason -- to clean ones act and detox.  At the end of the meeting you get in a circle, hold hands and recite the lords payer.  The whole GOD thing I haven't brought up at the meeting yet.  I didn't want to bring a bunch of controversy to the table initially, which I have a tenancy to do, without even trying.  It's my way, I suppose......such is life.

C- get your *** there now!
    

[ibizan]

if u don't smoke the non-smokers meetings will be refreshing.its nice to have a variety of meetings to check out......all womens sprinkled in there is variety and at womens discusssion ur comfortable discussing things if  u choose that u wouldn't feel comfy with in mixed company.So try some different ones and see what clicks 4 u.i'm happy to see ur gonna give this a try and do realize your sons schedule.it is Saturday and tues isn't far away..if thats the best u can do then thats cool.I had a lady client who was crack addict.her son had Aspbergers.She did so well and got clean.stayed that way for awhile....then relapsed.i tried to contact her but no hear back.ur in my prayers Charlie girl......u go girl!